How I Survived The Dead

Mistakes

I made sure everybody was asleep. I take Rick's revolver from under my pillow and silently get up. I creep out of the basement and leave the cabin. The cold air blew briskly in my face. The moonlight shined directly on me through the trees. I raise the revolver to my head and put a bullet into the chamber. Before I pulled the trigger, the door opened swiftly and a hand swiped the gun away from me. I turn around to see Lori in my face.

"Why would you stop me?" I demand.

"You did what you had to do! You said that yourself!" Lori yelled.

"This is my decision! You can not stop me from doing this!" I shout.

"So, What? Your just going to pull the trigger? Your going to leave me? And Andrea? And Beth? And Logan?" Lori demanded.

"I'm just going to get you all killed anyway!" I cry.

"How can you say that?" Lori yelled.

"I let Sophia die! I let Carol die! I let Maggie die! I let Shane die! I let Rick die! And I let Michonne die! Open your eyes!" I scream.

Lori stares at me in horror. I notice a shadow coming from behind her. A walker came from behind a tree and bit her shoulder. She screamed in pain. I looked for the revolver but it must've fallen under the leafs. Lori was grappling with the walker. I finally found the gun. The walker scratched Lori in the stomach. Lori fell back. The walker now looked at me. I raised the gun and shot the walker in the head. I sat beside Lori.

"I'm so sorry!" I sobbed.

"Shoot me." Lori said.

"You don't want to do this!" I argue.

"You do this for me. Your going to beat this world! It's so easy to do the wrong thing so please, don't let the world spoil you! Don't pull that trigger on yourself. And please... Take care of Judith for me." Lori told me.

"Don't make me do this!" I cry.

"Your going to be just fine." Lori concluded.

It was then. Lori's eyes shut softly. Her head fell to the side. I cry loudly. I screamed her name desperately into the air. I hug Lori's body as hard as I could. I pull out Rick's gun. Lori told me to pull the trigger on her. But I just can't do it. I threw the gun aside and cry into Lori's shoulder. I shake my head angrily.

"I am doing this for you. I'm going to survive this world for you!" I sob.

I lifted the gun. With my other arm I hid my face. I felt the kick of the gun in my hand; just like before with Michonne. I cried as loud as loud as I could. The loudest I have ever cried. Everybody was at the door within minutes. Logan dragged me back inside and into the basement. He set me onto my bed and knelt beside me.

"Were you bit too?" Logan asked.

"No." I replied

"Get some sleep." Logan said randomly.

"I'm not tired." I said.

"Just get sleep!" Logan yelled.

Logan went back upstairs. I looked over at Judith. I put her in my arms and fell asleep.

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Judith woke me up. She was crying. I grab a bottle of milk and hand it to her.

"Tank you." Judith said.

She wasn't the best at pronouncing words yet but she will improve. She began drinking. Everybody was still asleep. Andrea slept silently. Beth slept in Logan's arms in the same bed. It was just us four.

"You sleep well?" Andrea asked.

"Of course." I lied.

"I'm going to look for more food in Kinark." Andrea said.

"I'll go too." I say as I went to grab the revolver.

"No. You've done enough. I will bring Beth with me." Andrea argued.

Andrea woke Beth and Logan.

"We will be back in about an hour. If we aren't back you should go and look for us." Andrea said.

Andrea and Beth left. Logan had a depressed look on his face. I knew he was thinking of Beth.

"She'll be alright." I reassured him.

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Three hours passed. Logan had been freaking out.

"Andrea said they would be back in an hour!" Logan yelled.

"Calm down." I say.

"Don't tell me to calm down!" Logan shouted.

I picked up Judith as Logan opened the latch and we stood at the door. He had a gun. I had the revolver and my knife.

"I am going to look for them." Logan said and opened the door.

A shot was fired. Logan fell onto the floor. A wound in his chest made a pool of blood on the floor.

"Oh god!" A man gasped.