Only a Dream

Chapter 13

Mikey's Pov

I was getting really worried about Taylor, ever since the dream she had that night she's been extremely depressed. She barely talks and hasn't really eaten anything. My parents are really worried about her but every time we ask her about it she shrugs it off and says she's tired. Tired is an understatement, she hasn't slept since that night. I honestly don't know what to do for her, I've heard her crying in the shower, I know it's because she doesn't want to bother anyone with her problems. I want to help but I don't exactly know how to, she won't tell me fully  what's wrong.

"Hey princess It's almost time for us to leave are you all packed up?" My voice was gentle as I walked into my room to see her laying on my bed crying in the dark.

"Baby please tell me what's wrong, I can't stand to see you like this." I walked over to the bed slowly, sitting on the edge rubbing Taylor's back.

"Mikey," she choked out. "I love you."

"I love you too baby. You're really scaring me." My voice was laced with concern.

"I'm scared too." she wouldn't look at me.

"About what baby?"

"Everything." She stated the simple word, but nothing about it was simple.

I tried to comfort her, "You don't have to worry about anything, as long as you're with me, nothing bad will ever happen. And I will always be here, I promise."

"Don't make promises you can't keep." she said sharply, causing a pang to my chest.

"But-" I tried to speak but she cut me off,

"No, don't tell me you'll always be with me, and definitely don't promise me. Forever means nothing and promises are meant to be broken. You know how easy it is to lose someone? Seconds. It only takes seconds to lose someone, a fatal accident, a thought that finally goes through your brain where you realize you don't love me anymore, or never did." she was slightly raising her voice now, and crying harder. "I'm so scared that I'm going to lose you Mikey. I am so in love with you that it terrifies me. Mikey we're polar opposites, how do you expect any of this to work."

She took a deep breath and tried to calm the tears streaming down her face. "Mikey you have this unconventional beauty about you. I'd be under exaggerating if I said that you took me by surprise, you left me in a haze and once I got a taste I couldn't get enough. Once you got inside my brain it was like a virus that infected every inch of my being. You are all I can think about. I've never been in love Mikey, and if this is truely love, than it's utterly terrifying. You have the kind of beauty that I could stare at for days and never grow tired of, you've blurred everything around me. Nothing has ever made me feel this way, this kind of power over me, I can't stand being out of control like this." 

She finally paused because she was crying so much. Her words struck something in me and soon I began to cry too.

"Baby. You want to know why you're so scared?"

She scoffed, "Really? After all of that you're going to tell me me why I'm scared?" Her voice was spitting venom.

I ignored her hateful comment. "You've always been on your guard. And you finally let someone in. Me. Polar opposites, yes maybe but I think that's why we work. You have your own special kind of beauty baby. Dark and intimidating, and if I'm being completely honest, slightly scary. But you know what? It's absolutely adorable. You've always been a mystery and even though you've let me in, there's still things I don't know. You always keep me intrigued."

She interrupted. "I always keep you wondering right? Beauty or beast? I get that a lot. I can tell you the answer. It's beast."

Again ignoring the hate in her voice, "Maybe, but there's beauty in you too. So much beauty. There's beauty in your daring smirks, the way you raise your eyebrows at me. The way you try to secretly hide your blush when I call you princess  or baby. Our love hit me straight on and ever since we met I haven't been able to keep my mind off of you. You were hard to obtain, you were always just out of reach, and now that I have you I'm never letting go babe. Our love makes me mess up my words leaves my stomach in knots.When I'm without you it leaves my heart aching, and when we're together you always leave me breathless. Your wild and even though you're hard to love I do. Baby you hit me like a train and I can't stop thinking about you."

She giggled slightly at my final statement, and it wasn't a sarcastic kind of laugh, it was genuine.

"I'm sorry Mikey." She looked down, I could tell she felt guilty about the words she said, I just let them fall to the back of my brain, not thinking much about them. I know she's scared so I forgave the nasty words.

"I forgive you. I know that you are terrified of what your feeling. I'm here to help. I guess I can't promise forever, but I can tell you that I love you, and all I want is you and I, I will love you till I wake up."

She smiled at the ground remembering when I told her that we could dream as long as she wanted.

"Because when I wake up is when the nightmare starts. And I promised not to turn this into a nightmare. That is one thing I can swear on my life."

I was fully aware of how serious my words were becoming, but I meant every single syllable. I would do anything for Taylor.

"I love you Mikey." She grabbed my face and kissed me passionately.

"I love you too baby. Are you ready to drive back to your house?"

She froze up slightly. "Um... Ya, I'm driving right?"

"If you want to princess."

"Yes! I'll drive."

She jumped at the opportunity a little too quickly and I was confused at first. Then I remembered her dream, or nightmare.

"It's going to be okay baby."

She chuckled, "Ya because I'm a great driver!"

I laughed, "Oh ya right!"

"Theoretically you got us in an accident."

I laughed again, "I love you, but your a dork."

"Shut up! You love my dorkiness!"

"Yes I do!" I cupped her face in my hands, wiped away the remaining tears and kissed her gently.