Only a Dream

Chapter 17

Taylor's POV
Its been a few weeks since I had my little episode, I made a video explaining to everyone what happened. It took me at least 12 times to film it because I didn't know what to say. Eventually I got it recorded, and as soon as I posted it all my subscribers were tweeting at me to stay strong, and telling me how much they loved me. Honestly I'm so glad I have then all in my life, I would never be able to stay strong without them.
"Hey babe, how are you feeling today?" Mikey had been really supportive lately, he asks me every day, and he's been trying so hard to "fix me"
I gave him a genuine smile "Today's the first day that I've woken up and I haven't felt like shit."
His smile grew larger, "That's great! I'm glad your finally feeling better princess."
I smiled at him again and then it grew silent as we got ready for the show today. Its always a little awkward when we talk about my depression but I know its necessary to talk about.
"Hey Taylor?"
"Yes Mikey?"
"Did you take your pill yet today?"
My smile instantly faded, "Uh, no not yet. I hate taking that thing."
"But you need to take it to get better babe." His voice was sad and worried.
"That's what I hate about it!" I snapped. "I have to take a fucking pill to be happy, do you know how messed up that is?"
He lowered his head. He didn't know what to say, and I didn't blame him.
"You know what fuck it. Can you hand me my pills." He nodded and grabbed the container that I kept them in and then he grabbed some candy and put one in each slot along with the pills.
"Here, I know your favorite candy is sour patch kids so maybe this will make taking them a little less annoying."
I smiled at him, I've been learning to look for the little things that make me happy and focus on those. Mikey has really been helping. Today was the last day of the tour and now it was time to go home. We were packing up and then all of the boys and I were going to go shopping and hang out one last time.
"Mikey are you ready to go?"
"Yes I am babe, let's go get he other guys" he intertwined our hands and we walked out of the room. All the guys were waiting in the lobby and we got in separate ubers. Once we got to the mall we made a rule that we had to stay together, but that soon changed when we all wanted to go to different stores.

A few hours later Mikey was complaining about how his feet hurt so I called all the boys and told them to meet us at the frozen yogurt stand. It was time to leave anyway so we headed back to the hotel.

The ride to the airport was silent and I was trying not to cry. Finally I broke the agonizing science, "I'm gonna miss you guys!"
This was our last ride on the tour bus so we all walked through talking about the memories we made. I initiated a group hug before we had to go to our separate gates.

The most emotional goodbye was Mikey.
"I love you."
"I love you too princess."
"You're gonna call me every day right?"
"No."
I looked up at him disappointed.
"Oh" sadness filled my voice.
"I'm going to face time you everyday silly!"
I hit his chest, "You're a butthead I actually thought you weren't going to call me."
Before I could continue my rant he kissed me, that was our goodbye. The intercom announced it was time for our planes to depart.
"I'm gonna miss you, I love you baby."
"Me too Mikey... I love you, I'll text you when I land."
"Be safe."
I turned away and tried my hardest not to cry, I'm going to miss him more then words can explain.
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As soon as I landed I texted Mikey and I got no response so I assumed he hasn't landed yet. My parents offered to take out to eat but I was was to tired so we just went home. I didn't even try to unpack, instead I just hopped on my bed and passed out.
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I woke up as few hours later and checked the time. It was 12 the next day, I got home at 5. I slept for 19 hours, damn I was really tired. I checked my phone to see if Mikey had texted me back and there was nothing, huh that's weird... The conversation we had earlier wasn't even in my phone, I went to call him and his number wasn't there either. I went down stairs and my mom was making lunch.
"Hey mom"
"Good morning sleepy head"
I was still very confused "Mom did you get in my phone and delete all of Mikey's contact information and our conversations?"
"What are you talking about sweety?"
"Well I texted Mikey when I landed and told him that I was safe and to text me when he got home and there was not texts so I called him and his number wasn't even there."
"Wait what? Landed? Landed from where honey?"
"Mom you're confusing me, you just picked me up from the airport, the tours over and I was tired and I came home and slept."
"Oh no... Sweety you didn't go on tour yet. We still have to go to the meeting in California tomorrow."
"Wait what" my head flooded back to all the memories that seemed so real. "Mom please tell me your just messing with me!"
"How much did you dream?"
"The whole tour! Mikey and I... It was all fake, none of that happened? It felt so real. Mom please don't mess with me, I know this all happened."
"Why on earth would I be messing with you, you got the call yesterday and then said you needed to rest up for the plane ride to California."
"So I made all of that up in my head? All of that was a dream..."
"I guess so sweetheart."
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The End

I'm so sorry this took me so long, I had no motivation to write... Oh and also don't hate me for this, I'm sorry you're definitely gonna hate me for how I ended this haha.