Only a Dream

Chapter 16

Mikey's Pov

It's been two days and Taylor is still in the hospital. I haven't gotten a chance to talk to her yet, they won't let me in the room. I really made a huge mistake. I don't know what got into me, I should have trusted her, asked for an explanation. The picture just looked so real.

No matter how much I just wanted to stay in bed and wallow in my sadness, I had to get dressed and do a show for the fans. I was quite the whole way there, I really didn't want to be doing this. I just wanted to talk to Taylor and work things out. I needed my princess back.

Throughout the show I tried to be my normal self, but there was a weight on my shoulders that I couldn't get rid of. I thought I was doing a good job until a fan commented on behavior during our question and answer session.
"Mikey you don't seem like yourself? What's been going on, we've only gotten bits and pieces of the story, I know were all curious as to what happened between you and Taylor. Can you explain?"
I took a deep breath, deciding I should tell them at least part of the story.
"I can tell you guys some of the story, but I don't want to get into the details because that's a personal thing for Taylor to tell you guys. So recently Luke and Taylor had been getting really close, and I guess it was making me jealous, because I love her so much and I can't bare loosing her." I blinked away the tears, because I did loose her. I let her go.
"Two days ago someone tweeted me a photo and it was Luke and Taylor kissing. I freaked out, I felt so betrayed. Taylor was asking me what outfit looked better on her and I said some harsh words that I completely 100% take back. Then I broke up with her, I didn't want to talk to anyone, and I wanted to beat the shit out of Luke. Sorry dude." I looked at him and he gave me a small smile and laughed a little bit.
"I didn't give Taylor a chance to explain, but she had made a video. At first I didn't watch it, but then she started tweeting some weird things. She was being reckless, but then she sent out a tweet saying goodbye. Right then I started getting worried, and you guys were tweeting at me to watch the video, so I did. I could stand to see her the way she was in that video, it broke my heart to see her like that."
Again fighting tears I continued.
"Well it turns out the picture was fake, so I rushed back to the hotel to talk to Taylor. I, I um well we didn't get to talk. She, well she was completely unconscious." I started to break down at the memory, seeing the love girl I was madly in love with, lifeless in front of me.
"I called the ambulance and they took her to the hospital. Why she was admitted I'll leave for her to explain. And I cant tell you how she feels, because I don't know. I haven't even gotten to talk to her yet. I'm scared that I've lost her forever. But um ya that's what happened, and we don't know when she'll be joining us on tour again."
There were some fans crying with me, some holding up signs that they loved me. Most of them were screaming that they were praying for Taylor and for me to stay strong, which made me smile. Something caught me off guard though, one of the girls in the audience had waited for it to get quite and then she screamed,
"She deserves to be in the hospital. She's a slut anyway, that picture wasn't fake. She was fucking Luke behind your back."
"Excuse me?"
"She's a slut. She doesn't deserve you."
"Taylor is far from a slut. Taylor is the nicest, and most down to earth girl that I know. You don't know her like I do, I way over reacted when I saw that because she would never do anything like that to anyone. If anything I don't deserve her, she treated me better than anyone I've ever met and she loved me with all her heart. I love her more than anything and it breaks my heart to see her like this. Taylor is the best thing that has ever happened to me."
After I said all of that I walked off the stage and out of the venue. Before I knew what I was doing I got a cab and was on the way to the hospital.
"Hi, what room is Taylor Smith in?" I said giving the lady behind the counter a small smile.
"307, its right down the hall to your left." She said pointing into the direction I needed to go.
"Thank you." I walked quickly to her room and took a deep breath before opening the door.
"Mikey?"
"Hi. I really need to talk to you."
"I thought you never wanted to see me again." Her voice was fragile, just above a whisper.
"I was so wrong. I am so sorry that I didn't let you explain, I let my stupid jealousy get the best of me and I threw away the best thing to ever happen to me away over a stupid picture. Taylor I love you so much and I completely understand if you hate me, but i don't want to loose my princess." I let the tears fall because I was tired of holding back.
"Mikey."
I sighed, I knew what was coming. She hated me.
"Come here and kiss me you idiot."
A huge smile took over and cupped her face in my hands and kissed her passionately.
"I love you Taylor. I'm such and idiot for almost loosing you. Damn I thought I'd never see you again."
"I can't deny that you are an idiot. But your my idiot. I love you Mikey."
We both smiled and I kissed her again. A silence fell between us, and I couldn't help but let curiosity get the best of me.
"Why did you do this to yourself?"
She looked and her hands.
"Everything just kept building up, and I reached my breaking point. Mikey I haven't been happy since we left home. I've tried. I tried so hard to be happy but every time I did my brain just kept telling me know. I didn't actually want to end my life, just forget the pain for a little bit. But I guess my little body can't handle a whole bottle of vodka."
She wouldn't look at me while she was speaking.
"Why didn't you tell me you weren't happy, I could have helped." I was starting to get worked up again.
"Mikey stop. No one could have helped me. I needed to help myself, I guess I couldn't do that." She looked down again.
"Now I have to take a pill every damn day so I can feel normal again."
She wasn't the same as when we first met. This wasn't the Taylor I knew, she sat there emotionless.
"The only reason I'm trying to get better is for you." I looked up and she was looking at me with a sad expression.
"I couldn't leave you here to dream alone."
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A/n
THE END!!!!

JUST KIDDING! I couldn't end it like that.
It is currently 4 in the morning, I haven't slept and I hate myself for this chapter.
I keep referencing the talk they had about dreaming and not letting it turn into a nightmare and every time I do I get a little more emotionally unstable.
I swear I'm not crying right now. Okay that's kinda a lie.
Well any way I'll just end on that note. Happy holidays, I know this time of year is hard for some people, stay strong I can promise you it will get better. I love you guys.