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Letter to Myself | 1

December 15, 2015
9:38 pm

Dear Self,

Ta-da! Oh, I bet you thought that you're gonna survive this day without crying. You are so wrong. You woke up thinking of him, and him with another girl, and him having the time of his life with someone else, and him not caring about you. You woke up thinking about him! While you already know that he's not thinking about you. Why are you doing that? That's so stupid. And now, you're going home with tears in your eyes and a heart that is broken for how many pieces? Billion? Sorry, broken is not the right word. Crushed. Yes, it's crushed. Crushed in a way that you can mix it in a 3-in-1 coffee and pour it with boiling water and drink it straight and boom! Explode. You wanted to explode right now. You wanted to be gone for a while or forever so that you won't feel it again. But since it'll be unfair to you, you wanted to crush him as well. Burn him. And be gone forever that you won't see him again and cause you pain anymore. You want that, right? But you can't. you cannot because you love him too much. That instead of hurting him, you want him to change and be a better person and love him all over again. Wtf. That's insane. That's... not gonna happen. So, I guess, I'm gonna tell you this again, my dear, dear self, get over him. Move on. Walk away. Let go. And fuvckin' forget him.

Sincerely yours,
Yourself