When people argue, not only is it uncomfortable, its triggering. I don't like arguing, I don't like to witness arguing. I feel out of place and as if its my fault. It just reminds me of all the times I have been the fault or part of the fault for an argument.
The people I'm talking about may or may not see this. I don't know if they know I write on here but guys, work it out, please.
It just reminds me of the times my parents used to argue. I feel like I can't breath or if a second heart was stuck in my throat and it was just choking me to death. I get so anxious. I hate it. I hate arguing. Because sometimes I can't stop myself from crying. I cry a lot and I don't think a lot of people know that. I cry or feel like crying all the time. I hate it. I hate being sensitive. It makes me feel weak. I'm supposed to be "strong". But I'm not. It makes me feel stupid. I know crying is healthy but the amount of times I have cried and sometimes over the tiny things, makes me feel like a loser.
On top of that, so much stress has come. I'm preparing for college. I have a giant list that needs to be completed. I have tests and classes that I can't fail! It's my last year of high school and I have no desire in spending it with so much stress.
ON TOP OF THAT....I'm trying not to smoke cigarettes as much. But it's really hard to stop the flame hitting that other end of the stick. As soon as I inhale, it touches all my problems and when I blow, they seem to stick onto the toxic smoke and fly away with it. Yeah, I'm pretty sure I'm stupid.
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These Little Things
RomanceThese little poem...they aren't really poems. I don't know what they are but read them and tell me how you feel about these lol. BY THE WAY: please please do not take credit for these because they are my words. My thoughts. I wrote them. Not you. I...
