God, having a crush is can be so good and so terrible on so many levels.
It's not about looking at another pretty face. It's about looking at that face and hoping for something more. You have that small ball of hope that they may feel the same and you two can create something of your own. Whenever you look at them, you get all blushy and you just don't want to stop looking at them. When you think of them, your stomach just explodes and the butterflies just whirl and you get goosebumps and you just smile for no reason. Speaking of reasons, you also have a reason to keep going. To hold on to the day until you get to see them then once you do, you just let go and enjoy the ride of the rollercoaster you got on to get to that exact moment of when you see them.
But sometimes, it's not like that. This is where having a crush can be horrible.
Having a crush can bring out your worst side towards others. You get jealous and jealousy isn't pretty. You get protective over that person. You forget your responibilties and reality comes tumbling down while you are stuck in your mind, imagining all these things you can do with your crush. Like me right now, I get out of my brain to focus on what I am doing and I realize...holy shit, I have a lot to catch up on.
It's even worse when they don't like you back and your brain goes straight to figuring out why. Am I too fat? Am I too skinny(Even though it won't apply to me but maybe to you)? Am I too loud? Am I too quiet? Am I too smart? Am I too stupid? Am I too clumsy? Is my fashion sense getting in the way? Is it my hair? I think you get the point. It's so hard. Then all you wanna do it mold yourself into something you aren't for that person, unless you think that you don't have to change yourself for that one person(Can I be you please?).
Having a crush overall, for me, can be an amazing, horrible experience.
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