Hearts Filled With Love

Chapter 3

                       I don't know what to think or feel right now. Should I be grateful and happy that my abusive mother and father are dead, sad that the parents I loved but abused me are dead, or mad that someone accidently killed my parents by hitting them with a car? Should I even go to their funerals? I'm just so confused that I don't know what to do and can't think straight right now. The only thing that I know for sure what I want to do is scream this problem away from my life and make want to never come back. Marius sees how confused I am and is trying to comfort me if that's even what I need right this minute. I think he's confused on how to make me feel better about this if I need to.

              Gavroche on the other hand knows exactly how to feel both mad and sad that our parents are dead. He never did see the abusive side of them like I did. He loved them so very much. It makes it worse that we found out about it three days after all except one, Marius, of his friends died. He cries walking around punching every pillow or blanket that he can get his hands on.

           Eventually, he comes up to us and lays his head on my lap using me and Marius as a bed and pillow. Marius being the bed and me being the pillow. I think that he needs his nap. If he doesn't get it every day he'll get to the point where Marius and I have to hold him down and make him calm down. "Hey bud, it's going to be okay. Time for your nap." I say and he nods walking to get ready and takes a nap. "I love you and see you when you wake up." I add after putting him in bed.

         After I'm done I walk towards the living room sitting down by Marius who says, "Hey Ponine. Are you Okay? I'm sorry about your parents."

      "Hey... Yes, No, I don't know. To be honest I don't know what to feel. A side of me says happy and grateful because they were abusive and I don't have to deal with the abuse again. The other side of me says to be sad because even though they were abusive they were still my parents who I loved. I guess a mix of all of those three. I just want to scream this problem/ fact away from my life right now.

       Marius nods and says, "I understand would you like to see what Cosette wanted her father to bring us personally? You know to get some time away from the most recent problem or fact."

      "You do? Okay sure." I answer

      "I mean the being confused yes, but I haven't had problems with abuse and I'm very sorry that you have. You don't deserve to have gone through that." he says and hands me my letter and present then gets his.

       I'm so thankful to have him and wonder when he's going to ask me to be his girlfriend. I'm also thankful that although Cosette still loved him, she knew what he wanted and what was to be done for him to be happy. I open the letter first and read it (author's note-bold is what the letter says)

                                                                               Dear Eponine,

Hello. I'm sure you're shocked at what just happened. War makes the world so violent and different then what we're used to. Congratulations on gaining Marius' love and being his new girlfriend just like he wanted when he realized the love he had was for you and not me. I hope that you enjoy the rest of your life with him. In your box there's a necklace that I got from my mom and since I won't be having any kids I want you to have it to pass down to your future kid(s). There's also stuff like clothes from when I was little and ones that I wore near adulthood that might fit you. We barely knew each other and I'm sure that you hated me when I left your parents' house and hope you can hate me a little less. The clothes that I'll never wear, books I'll never read and movies I'll never watch again are all in this box. I did this because it's what had to be done for Marius to live a happy life. I hope that you fulfill it with every opportunity you have and that you two live happily ever after. I'll be protecting you two. Goodbye Eponine Thenardier.

                                                     Sincerely, Cossette

                                                 ~~~~~~~~Marius' POV~~~~~~~~

        I open the card a couple of minutes after Eponine opened hers' and read it.

                                                   Dear Marius,

If you're reading this and my father has done what I asked him to do then that means that I went against what you told me to do. You told me to stay at my house and I went to the barricade. My reasoning for this is that if you were dead, I don't think that I could live knowing that I didn't try to save you. I did what I had to do in order for you to survive, I just hope that Eponine the girl that you truly love is alive with you. If she is then I'm happy you'll have the life you wanted even if I can't see or be a part of it. If she's not then I'm sorry that you lost the one that you truly love. It's a difficult process that both Eponine and I understand. I wish that you did have to go through life without me. I only intended to keep you alive no matter what the consequences were and what would happen to me. I love you and understand that it's not fair to try and make you love me. I get that you're in love with Eponine and wish you two the very best. Don't waste any opportunities. Make sure that she knows what you think of her just like you did with me when we were dating. I'll never forget you. Thank you so much for being a great friend and boyfriend for a short time.

                                                    Love, Cossette

                                  ~~~~~~~~~~~~Eponine's POV~~~~~~~~~~~~

        I have tears in my eyes from the letter. She was so sweet and I only despised her the majority of my life. I turn to see Marius who is also crying from his letter. We take a short break and then open the box with presents. I find the necklace and wear it the second I found it. I leave the stuff from when she was a young kid in the box and put the clothes that would fit me in the closet of me and Marius's room.

     Out of nowhere I feel Marius behind me holding me in his arms. "Hey, what's up?" I ask

    "Hey nothing really, okay that's a lie. Did I mention that I was so blind that I couldn't see the one that I actually love? Being with Cossette made me realize that it wasn't her that I love. It's you. You're the one that I really love. Nothing could or is ever going to change that. Eponine Thenardier, I know that you're going through a difficult time and I am too. My heart is filled with love for you not Cossette. I love you though and feel like we've already been a couple for a while so I want to make it official." He says and gets on his knees with a box and opens it up. Inside of it is a beautiful diamond green heart engagement ring. "Will you, Eponine Thenardier, Marry me?" he finishes.

      "Yes! A million and infinite Yes. I love you so much too." I say crying happy tears.

               _____________________AUTHOR'S NOTE_________________________

Hey thanks so much for reading this chapter. It was so much fun getting inside of Cosette's head and writing this chapter. I started this on Tuesday because I was bored and I finished writing it on Thursday after my math midterm. I appreciate each and everyone of you for reading this book. I also want to thank EponinePontmercy for commenting last chapter and saying that I did what I was aiming for which was to make people feel bad for Cosette and somewhat cry for her. I hope that you guys have a very Merry Christmas and a Holly Jolly Christmas. I also  hope that all of your Christmas wishes come true and that you have a great New Years. I need like a signature thing for this book, any ideas? See you in 2016!!

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