Broken Minds, Broken Hearts - Jaspar

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((I will never be happy))

Joe mentions how gay isnt normal but that is not my view. It also obviously isnt Joes, in real lifes, opinion and its not my opinion either. I just thought i may tell you so you know and things.

Now lets get on with this chapter.

Btw just to remind you, im not a very good speller!

Joes pov

Whist we were walking towards the bridge from the hedge i suddenly remembered, Caspar didnt agree or disagree to the statement that he was gay.

"Hey caspar?"

"Mm?"

"Nevermind..."

I just couldnt ask him. I didnt have the corage to tell him that im gay.

"Joe?" caspar asked.

"Yep."

"I will talk to dan. Can you talk to Tyler?"

"Sure thing buttercup."

Wait...why did i say that?!

"Alright then sweetheart." he laughed.

I glanced over. Both of our faces were red. I forced out a small laugh.

"Lets get down to business caspar."

I then quickly jogged towards tyler who had just left the bridge. I snuck past dan who looked quite confused but he didnt notice me.

"Tyler!" i yelled.

He turned around.

"Oh Heeeeeey!!!!" tyler yelled back.

He gave me a hug and i hugged him back.

"How are ya?"

"Good thanks tyler."

"You still annoyed at caspar?" tyler said seriously.

"Oh, you know about that?"

"Yep. Dan told me!"

I gave him a smirk and he shook his head.

"Why are you down here?" tyler asked.

"I followed phil and bumped into caspar and told him about what he did to you two."

"Joeeee!!!!!" tyler told me off, "why you do that for silly!"

"Whatever." i shrugged, "so was that you talking to dan?"

"Yes but that isnt important. What is important is you getting together with caspar!!!"

"What?! No!" I could feel myself going red.

"Yep. You are gay. Caspar is gay." tyler started.

"Wait. Stop right there. Caspar is not gay. Caspar cannot be gay. I wont let him fall in love with some other hot male. I wont let him leave me on my own. I bet he has fallen in love with you! No he has fallen in love with dan and thats why he said he will speak to him!!! No phil because he ran after him!!! Where is phil anyway!!!??" i lost it and shouted at tyler.

"Woah gurl calm down! Phil has been taken to the hospital." tyler tried to calm me down but i just couldnt.

"No he is not!!! Did he jump!? How many times do i have to say the word JUMP. Why cant i say suicide? I just cant say it. Why am i such a wimp!?"

"Joe, thats not your fault. You have had to go through things that i wouldnt imagine of."

"Tyler, I cant even tell my fake friends that im not normal. God!!! How and why cant i be normal!!? You arent normal Tyler! Look at you! You are still happy! Why cant I be happy!"

"You can be happy Joe."

"I bet i will never be happy Tyler."

Tyler opened his mouth to speak but i was unable to hear as i turned and ran.

Thats the way i handle most things. I either run or fight and sometimes i yell.

I dont mean the things i say sometimes.

I knew caspar would fall in love with someone other than me. I mean look at me.

A/N

Heeeeey!!

What did you guys get for Christmas(if you celebrate it)?

I got phan merch and Username:Evie

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