Broken Minds, Broken Hearts - Jaspar

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((Our story is coming to a close))

Caspars pov

I watched him go.

I watched him cry.

I watched him say goodbye.

I didnt stop him.

I wish I did.

But I dont want my mind overpowering my body.

I had to ignore it and go home.

I turned and grabbed my suitcase.

I started to walk back when I heard someone shouting, "CASPAR!"

I ignored them as I thourght that it was nothing.

"Caspar. Stop. I need to tell you something." The person said behind my back, "listen, Joe needs you. He tried to kill himself because of being Bullied and being ignored and abandoned. He was bullied for being different. He was just scared of the concept of being gay because of what the bullys said."

"how do you know that the bullys said all this?" I asked the person.

I still had my back to them.

"Because I was once one of them."

I turned around and I was greeted by Alfie.

"What?" I asked him suprised.

"I hung out with the cool kids for at least a month. They would make fun of joe so many times. I was behind the scene. He had no idea but please, im only telling you this because I trust you." He told me.

"You said that you had trust issues..."

"Yes. I do now. The reason for that is because of the main bully. Im not even going to say his name. He seemed like a nice guy until the bullying started. He would bully me and be abusive to everyone. The things he said stayed in my mind." Alfie said with a hint of anger.

"What sort of things did he say?" I asked, "you dont have to tell me but..."

"No, I will. He once told me 'Alfie, you will never reach your dreams.' He also said, 'Alfie, you will and will always be ugly, useless and a nobody. You will not be loved by anyone.' I still believe what he said." Alfie said sadly.

"None of that is true!" I told him sternly, "You are useful, beautiful and you are a somebody. You have a girlfriend who loves you. A lot of friends who love you and yourself..."

"What about myself?"

"You should love yourself."

Alfie suddenly grabbed me and gave me a tight hug.

I obviously accepted the hug.

"Caspar. Im sorry." he sobbed, "all my life I have hated myself and wished that I could start again. I was lost and all I needed was someone to talk to."

"And Alfie, you are amazing." i told him.

"No you are. Please dont leave. I need you."

I sighed.

I never noticed how much of a mark I can leave on a place.

I never notived how many people I have helped without even knowing that I helped them.

All I needed was Alfie to knock some sence into me!

"I like to give second chances. Im going to stay." I smiled at him.

Alfie let go of the hug and started acting awkward.

"So you do know what happened the awards night?" He said.

"No. Not fully."

"Joe disappeared and went to the bridge. Zoë was able to find him and save him but its just how that night changed him. All summer, he has been planning something." alfie told me, "i saw a pile of paper in his room when I was visiting Zoë. Zoë told me that the pile of paper was his project but when nobody was looking, i turn the first page. It was just painted brght red...like blood red. There was red paint on his desk. That was all I saw though."

I took out my phone and quickly texted my mum (telling her that there was a change in plan) and Joe.

"Well, i better be off. See you around Caspar....buddy." alfie smiled as he walked away.

Its strange...

Life I mean.

Its stange how a person does not know how they affected another.

I never knew how much I helped Joe...

And he never knew how much he helped me overcome many things.

One being....

Being myself.

And getting over being lonely.

He will be my first and my only crush.

He will hopefully love me as much as I love him...

Because if not...

I dont think I could take it.

A/n

Thank you for being patient guys!

I was round my cousins yesterday.

I noticed that I never really have introduced myself...

Hi,

My name is Esther and I am 14 at the moment.

I live in England and Im in year 9.

That it really haha!

Im not really that interesting.

Jaspar dont live together anymore.

#sadtimes.

but guys dont be sad because they will still be best friends and they will be able to have sleepovers and stuff!!

#funtimes

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Love you lot! :)

See you on Saturday!