Fair Share of the Past

FortySix-What did i do?

Chapter Forty Six

"Anak san ka ba nanggaling?" pagdating ko sa mansion niyakap ako ni Mommy. umaga na ko umuwi.

"Wala My, may pinuntahan lang po saglit. akyat po muna ako." tumalikod na ko sa kanya saka dumiretso sa kwarto ko.

humiga lang ako saka nakatingin sa kisame. Lutang. yun ang nararamdaman ko ngayon. lutang ako.

niyakap ko yung unan sa tabi ko saka isinubsob yung mukha ko dun.

so much for Loving Lance..

kahit pala anung gawin ko. wala na talaga.

kakapikit ko palang nung tumunog yung iphone ko.

papikit ko syang kinapa sa side table saka tinignan kung sino yung nagtext.

'we need to talk.'

thats what it says in the message. and its from Lance.

'okay, text me the time and the place. i'll be there.'

***

I opted to a spaghetti strapped sando tucked in a maxi long skirt and sandals. i tied my short hair and took my bag. its already 6:30 and i'll meet Lance by 7.

i did not bother putting some make up on. just a lip tint.

i drove straight to Antipolo. we'll meet there. dun sa restau kung san ko sila nakita ni Margarette. i parked my car and went straight to the bench nearby. ang ganda kasi ng view dito. i waited for him outside.

pumayag ako makipag usap sa kanya to put everything to an end. i'm gonna ask for a closure and move on.

"Malamig dito." he said softly and sat beside me.

"hey." i said and smiled sadly. tumingin ulit ako sa view

"you wanna go inside?" he asked.

"Gutom ka ba?" i replied. umiling naman sya.

"i'm not hungry too. so lets talk here." i said softly "what do you wanna talk about?"

"uhm." tumikhim sya saka tumingin saken. "what we did was wrong." he said softly.

"yeah. didnt i tell you last night that i'll take all the guilt? dont worry about it." i looked away.

"I feel so guilty Venice." he said softly.

"its fine with me okay?" i smiled at him like everythings allright. "it happens all the time. temporary insanity. this isnt the first time it ever happened so shut it Lance. you dont have to feel guilty or anything."

"Are you sure?" he asked.

"Yes. i'm sure. just forget about it Lance. i never intended to do that as well. lets not make a big deal out of it." i said coolly.

"Friends?" he offered his hand.

"yes Lance, friends." i accepted his hand.

***

we talked about other things after that. para kaming magkaibigan na nagcacatch up sa isat isa. we talked, we laughed. everythings fine now.

"I'll see you at my wedding?" he asked. i looked at him.

"yes Lance, you'll see me at your wedding." i said softly and smiled before going inside my car. he knocked on my window.

"Bye, Venice." he said smilling and walked away. i started the engine when i remembered something.

"Lance!" i called out to him and went out of my car. lumingon naman si Lance.