again // kian lawley , andrea russett

eight

It's been a couple days since kian came back from Vancouver. I haven't been spending that much time with him though because he always says he's busy.

Today is Friday so it's my upload day. I filmed a updated morning routine and just finished uploading it when my phone buzzed.

[kian] wanna come over

[andrea] sure. I'll be there in 5

I know i seem eager and desperate to hangout with kian but it's because I am. He always hangs out with me for like three days straight and then shuts me out for a week. I don't understand him.

I walk into Kian's house without knocking because I think we are close enough for that.

"Hey." Kian says from the couch

I walk over and sit down next to him.
We sit in silence for awhile awkwardly so I speak up.

"Why do you hang out with me for like four days and then shut me out for a week?" I ask the same thing I was thinking earlier

Kian tenses up and his eyebrows furrow together.

"I don't shut you out, I'm just busy." Kian defends himself

"Okay. What are you busy with?" I question repositioning myself to be farther away from him

"Meetings." Kian says and I can tell that he's lying

I look at him and tilt my head trying to make him tell me the truth.

"I'm going to the bathroom." Kian getting up and walks off

I patiently wait for him to come back but his phone beeps. I'm sure it's just Jc or something so I don't think to look at it, but of course I do.

I pressed the home button to make the screen light up again. This is what it said,

[acacia] thanks for last night ;)

I quickly put Kian's phone where it was when he left. I can't fu.king believe what I just read. I actually had my hopes up for kian and I.

Kian comes back into the room and I can tell he's still upset about the question I asked him but I should be the one upset.

"So you hooked up with acacia? Is that what you hiding from me?" Way to go Andrea, always straight to the point

"What? Did you fu.king look at my phone Andrea!?" Kian yelled in my face and I just stared at him like he's an idiot, because he is

"I could see the text on your phone from where I'm sitting." I lied

Kian sat down on the couch and looked at his phone. His face went pale when he realized what I saw.

"Why would you do that?" I ask on the verge of tears

"I had a lot of stress and that's the only way I thought I could overcome all my thoughts." Kian says still looking at his phone

"Oh my god." I couldn't believe it. Kian knows she's a cheater and lier.
"Why would you do that? And you told me that she had a boyfriend! And that you would never do anything like that with her! What the fu.k kian!"

"Andrea, calm down. Acacia and are nothing. It was a mistake and I realize that now!" Kian try's to calm me down but it's not working

"You must be fu.cking stupid kian. Last week a photo of us kissing was released, then you go and hook up with acacia? What happens if a photo of you two is released? What are you going to do then?" I shoot a round of questions at kian

"Why do you care so much about what people care about me?" Kian sasses

"Because I care about you." I blurt not thinking but it is true.

Kian doesn't say anything.

"I'm just going to go." I say getting off the couch

"No. Andrea, we need to talk through this." Kian stands up and grabs my wrist but I slip out of his reach

"There is nothing to talk about! I still like you, which you know, or else you wouldn't have kissed me. And then you go off and have sex with acacia!" I yell in Kian's face which makes him shut up

"I still like you too. That's what all my stress was about Andrea." Kian says and I thin my eyes at him

"Your such a fu.king idiot! Why would you ruin everything we had going on to hook up with that b.tch?" I shout not caring if everyone in the world hears

"I don't know. It was just a mistake! Like when you hooked up with Corey." My mouth instantly shuts. Of course kian has to bring up Corey.

He's right. What I did was worse. I had sex with his best friend. What kian said makes me slow down and sit back down on the couch.

"I'm sorry." Kian says sitting down next to me.

I just sit there in silence soaking everything that just happened in. I rest my head on Kian's shoulder and he rubs his hand up and down my back.

"I should get going." I say standing up. "Don't text me."

I walk out of Kian's house before he has the chance to say anything to me.
I can't believe he would go behind me back and hook up with a girl I hate. We can't change the past so I guess that is forever going to be something that happened. I just have to put it all behind me.

A/N
oh shit