"Yeah, I'm sure. I want to tell him by myself." I reassure kian, who is literally shaking. Jack makes kian nervous, I guess.
"Just make sure Johnson is nearby." Kian unlocks the car door
I say 'okay' and make my leisurely way to jacks front door.
Just before I knock on the familiar grey door, Jack quickly pulls the it open.
I'm greeted by, what it looks like, a completely different man. Freshly shaven face, mature looking hair cut, obvious muscle gain, and something with his eyes- they're are brighter than the last time I looked into them. It's like the person behind his brown pupils is shining through.
He is aware of my shocked state of mind as he takes my hand to help my extra 10 pounds of stomach weight over, the now overbearing, five inch step.
"H-how are you?" I ask while fixing my wind-blown air and taking off my shoes
"I'm great. The real question is how are you?" Jack leads me to the clean kitchen and sits me down on the shortest barstool
"I'm good. I actually came here to tell you something." My heart races faster and faster as I imagine how he is going to react to this news
"Oh okay. Can I get you something to drink?" Jack says, opening the large refrigerator door
"I'll have some water, thank you."
Jack rushes to get me water, like im spongebob in the one scene at sandy's house.
"Is Johnson here?" I ask Jack just to make sure
It would be nice knowing there is someone else in the house. You never know how Jack will react to the news im dreading to tell him. Of course kian is outside, but it's not like he will magically know if Jack overreacts.
But what even is overreacting at this point. For five months, Jack has believed he is going to be a father. I can't imagine what his thoughts will be after he knows the baby isn't his. Maybe he won't be upset, maybe he will be happy that he won't have to be responsible for another human being.
The longer I wait to tell him, the more I think of the terrible ways this visit will end. I just have to get it out there, and leave. That's all I have to do.
"No. He's with Madison." Jack sighs while handing me my glass of water
"Madison? You mean, your madison?" My eyebrows furrow in confusion
"She's not mine anymore. Our baby broke us up, but it's worth it in the long run." He smiles brightly
He isn't making this any easier.
I drop the whole 'why is Johnson with madison' discussion to avoid any further awkwardness. I open my mouth, so close to spilling the news.
"Oh! Come upstairs." Jack nearly jumps "I need to show you something."
I let off a huff of air as Jack and I make our way up the stairs.
"I've spent so much time on this room." Jack smiles as he open ups a brightly colored room
"Oh my god." I say dryly
My eyes soak up exactly what I'm seeing; a nursery.
"Jack-I" my hands go up to my face, just to make sure I'm not dreaming- or having a nightmare.
I look down to my phone because i felt a buzz in my back pocket.
[kian] are you okay?
I look back up from my phone to see a happy Jack messing with the bright pink diaper station.
[andrea] this is going to take longer than I thought.
-
"Jack why-" I take a deep breath in, trying to come to my senses. He's just made this 100x harder. "Why have you done this?"
"Our baby isn't going to spend her whole life at your apartment." His tone is the same as when he's talking to a kindergartner
I put my face back into my hands. What am I supposed to say now? 'Oh yeah sorry that I told you this is your baby and you've spent thousands of dollars on a nursery, but this isn't your child.'
"Andrea, why are you acting so weird?"
Ok. Here goes nothing.
"I went to the doctor this morning." I say softly
"Oh my g- is everything alright, is the baby okay?" Jack immediately comes close to me
"Yeah, yeah the baby is okay." I answer
Jack lets out a heavy breath and holds his chest.
"But, the baby isn't yours." I blurt
Jack doesn't move. He doesn't take a step closer to me. He doesn't say anything.
"I'm seven months pregnant Jack. We had sex five months ago." I ease the information out in the open
"I-I just don't see how this could have happened." Jack starts pacing back in front between the crib and pack-and-play
I begin to say something but I don't know what
"How did you not even think about the sex you had seven months ago! Why didn't you think of that before you told me!" The anger seems to be kicking in
"The pregnancy signs kicked in right after we had sex! I didn't think of it!" I defend my side of the story
Jack raises his hand, causing me to immediately flinch. Jack face softens when he realizes I thought he was going to hit me.
"Oh andrea I would never lay a had on you!" Jack wraps his arms around me comfortably
My whole body has a relieved reaction, causing my knees to give in. I fall on my knees, Jack staying with me.
My head falls onto his chest, my stress falling out with the tears escaping my eyes.
"I'm so sorry." I cry out to Jack, repeating those words. "I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry"
"Shh, it's okay." Jack coos while rubbing my back, trying to calm me down
"I'm so sorry."
YOU ARE READING
again // kian lawley , andrea russett
Fanfictionkian and andrea have already been through this before, they thought they weren't compatible. after a year and and half they find their way back to eachother. can they maintain their love through the hard times?
