The Ramblings of the Mentally Unstable

My thoughts at night

I just feel like I'm too clingy and irritating. Being rejected makes me feel this way. I just have this unsettling feeling that I'll never be good enough for anybody I mean I wasn't good enough for Michael Zamion Kevin or joey. All of them said it was forever and they just left me. You can have any girl you want? I can barely stutter out a greeting to any guy so why me? I feel like I'm too twisted for anybody to love that when somebody shows me, love, I freak out and push them away. I just feel worthless like I have no place in this world
Some times most of the time I blame God asking him why he made me this way.. if God cared about us all why am I so screwed in life. Talking about all this it makes my throat tight and I start to cry again thinking and hoping you'll understand and just, I want someone to understand how I feel.
-loveless_jenova