Just Tell Me You Love Me (COMPLETED)

||JTMYLM 11||

Damn I wanna run to you
Hold you and kiss you tell you how I miss you
Thought I would have a son for you
But now it's officially over and I can't let you go
But I gotta let you know all the shit I did make it feel like I'm dying real slow,
'cause no one understands me they don't know what to do when I'm hurt when I'm angry
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Nicki

My hands were shaking as I stood at the sink in the bathroom. I broke down crying and fell to the floor dropping the pregnancy test out of my hand that read:Positive (Two Lines)

That night kept flashing in my head which made me cry even harder. I was alone with no one there to protect me. No one to help me. And now I'm pregnant with this man's baby.

I don't know who did this to me and I couldn't even begin to explain how I'm suppose to tell Meek that I'm pregnant with a child that's not his. I want to tell him what happened to me but after that threat and that man know where I live, I can't take the thought of losing Meek or Meek losing me. I got up from the floor with my hands still shaking and let the rest of my tears out as I looked at myself in the mirror.

I looked at the other test waiting for it to load and my heart was pounding rapidly as the 2nd test read: Positive

My hands shook and my heart sunk as the 3rd test read: Positive

I picked up the boxes and threw them against the wall and cried even harder. This is was too much and I know that I can't carry this man's baby.

I walked out of the bathroom with puffy red eyes and sat on the bed without saying a word as tears continued to roll down my cheeks. Meek came from his side of the bed and sat next to me and put his hand on my arm but I moved it away slowly.

"Baby, you haven't been talking to me for weeks and you won't tell me what's wrong. What's up with you man?"

I glanced over at him giving him a long stare shaking my head before slowly turning my head to look away from him. I heard him becoming frustrated when he sucked his teeth and got up from the bed and walked away.

"Man you know I don't like that shit you doing Nicki. I'm your man your suppose to tell me what wro---"

As he was walking, he began to pass the bathroom until he noticed pregnancy test scattered along the bathroom floor. He walked in and came out a minute later holding the test in his hand. He looked down at all of them and shook his head before looking back at me.

"Baby, your pregnant?" He asked but I didn't say a word to him I just continued to look away with my eyes closed

"We haven't fucked in weeks how the hell could you be pregnant Nicki? Are you fucking with someone else? Huh!?" His voice began to become louder and that's when I finally stood up and tried to calm him down but he pushed my hands away causing me to look at him like he was crazy.

"Don't fucking touch me man! You fucking around with somebody else carrying they baby? Are you fucking kidding me Nicki?" He sucked his teeth angrily and tried to walk away but I grabbed his arm to stay.

"Meek, I'm not cheating on you please just---" I began to say but he wouldn't let me finish. I looked at him with tears forming in my eyes and sniffled as I his words and his harsh tone startled me.