Just Tell Me You Love Me (COMPLETED)

||JTMYLM 12||

I feel one minute, yeah we got it then it's gone
While we keep waiting for a moment to live for
So can't nobody ever tell me that I'm wrong
Cause Imma ride I'm with you still the night is young
We keep goin', we go, we go, we go
We wake back up and do it all again
We know, we know, say fuck the world, we ridin' 'til the end
When all is said and done, look at what we've become
I just want you to know that I did it for you
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Nicki

I laid down on my bed with my thumb in my mouth letting out my tears on my pillow case. I sobbed lowly to myself as I laid down staring out the window. Everything in my life was going all so well until all this shit starting happening and now, everything is completely different. Meek and I haven't been talking like we usually do, mostly because I don't want to be bothered. I just want to be alone. That's all that I asked, especially after what I had to do.

*Flashback*

I laid myself down on the cold, metal table until the doctor came with his gloves on.

"Ms Maraj, I say this to every customer that comes in for this procedure. You may not want this baby now, but most woman regret losing their child after the process is done. Are you sure you want to go through with this procedure?"

I shook my head yes slowly as another tear fell down the side of my cheek. He nodded his head before slipping his mask on and placing my legs up to open up wider.

As he began the procedure, i immediately began to feel the pain from it all. I screamed silently to myself and sobbed lowly as I kept my eyes closed through the whole thing.

This was my worst nightmare having to do this. I don't like to have to go through this at all but something had to be done. I couldn't carry around a baby that was from my rapist. I...just couldn't

*End of flashback*

I heard the room door open loudly and I gasped as I turned over to see it was just Meek. Once I saw it was him, I turned back over and put my thumb back in my mouth. I felt like a big baby.

He placed his keys down on the dresser and took his shoes off before climbing in the bed next to me. I rolled back over and wrapped myself in his arms and cried my last tears.

"Baby I want you to listen to me ok?" He leaned up in the bed and wiped my tear with his thumb. He glanced me up and down and sighed heavily as I sat up in the bed waiting for him to say what he had to say. In my mind, I was praying it wasn't anything that would make my day go from bad to worse so my heart began to beat a bit quicker.

"I don't know for sure who did this shit to you but I want you to know that imma take care of that ok? But you have to promise me that you will not get upset or mad at what I'm about to tell you."

"What is it Meek?" I whispered lowly as I rolled my eyes and sighed because I knew whatever he had to say was already going to piss me off.

"There is a man that I used to work for in the drug gang back in the day. We was feuding for a long time until I told him I wouldn't work for him no more. Now he became my enemy. He always wore a black mask so nobody could see his face and I'm sure he's the one who did this to you. And....he's only doing this because...well me and my boys got into it with one of his crew with a deal we made and--"