Slay⇥Bellamy Blake⇤

Raven ≫Chapter 7≪

I wake up wrapped in a strong pair of arms, just to find out that I am yet again in Bellamys tent, but this time there's no Charlotte. All the events from yesterday flood through my mind, and it all becomes to much. I had no emotion towards anything anymore. The only thing I could think about was the fact that my sister was dead. My brother was dead. My parents were dead. Everyone that I've had my entire life was dead because of me. Yes, I still have Finn and Octavia and everyone else on the ground but none of it mattered. All I could think about was death. I untangle myself from Bellamys body and pull my pants on, leaving me in pants and a sports bra.

"Morning to you to" Bellamy jokes wrapping his arm around my waist.

"How long was I asleep?" I ask still not facing him.

"Slaydher" I turn around to see his eyes filled with concern.

"What?" I reply. He pulls me back into a sitting position on his lap as he remains laying in bed.

"Will you stop" he says as he rubs my back.

"Stop what?" I ask while looking down at him.

"Stop acting like every things fine. You can talk to me." he replies now rubbing my thigh.

"I'm fine Bellamy. I am 125% perfectly fine." I state while getting up and pulling my shirt over my head.

"No your not. Slaydher. Your sister just died and your acting like nothing happened." Bellamy says getting a little frustrated.

"Bellamy I'm fine. Its easier to act like nothing happened." I say emotionless. Bellamy becomes pissed off and stands up.

"How the hell can you say that?" he asks anger building up with every word

"What am I suppose to say?! My sister is dead. My Brother is dead. My parents are dead. Anyone I had who cared is dead. There is nothing left for me to do." I state watching as his face falls.

"I care. Octavia cares. Finn cares. Everyone on the ground cares. Sorry if you can't see that but it's true." He angrily replies.

"Your right you do care. That's why I can't do any of this. All of this is my fault. Everyone I care about dies. I'm not doing that to any of you." I try to get through to him.

"This is not your fault! Charlotte is dead because of Murphy! You were locked up when your brother was floated! It is not your fault that you parents are dead." He tries

"My parents are dead because of the fact that I was born! Charlotte is dead because Murphy had ME under his knife! Sowyer was floated because of what I did! My family is dead because of what I did." I start guilt hitting me with every word.

"Your mom was floated because of me. Octavia was arrested because I pulled her away from you..." I say barely above a whisper. I look up to meet his eyes and notice the water seeping out of them

"Bell.." He cuts me off by connecting his lips with mine. I freeze for a minute before he pulls away cupping my face in his hands.

"Everyone on the ground is alive because of what you have done. You saved Octavia. You helped save Jasper. You've managed to keep everyone here in line..." He starts

"Bellamy, you. And Clarke are the reason why we are all alive..." I argue just to be cut off

"I couldn't do it without you! Clarke couldn't do it without you! I need you Slaydher! Clarke needs you! We all need you. Stop putting the blame for everything on yourself and start seeing what you have achieved. None of this could have happened without you..."
I look up into his tear filled eyes and let out a sigh. I collide my lips back together with his before saying my last words.