101 voicemails

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"im almost done with my memoir i think. my life has been stable lately, and im actually pretty happy. but who wants to read about happy people? its boring.

my grandmother used to say that if you didn't fight, it meant you didn't care enough, and i suppose she's right. it certainly doesn't make for a good book when you aren't fighting something.

that's what a book is. an introduction, the rising actions, a climax, and then the storm clears up. i guess you leaving was my climax, and it certainly had a domino effect.

but now... i feel like im at the end of my book, you know? i have my happy ending.

it's just, ive been doubting everything recently, and i feel like... now that ive got my happy ending, i don't want it. or maybe there's something missing? maybe i never got closure, like, after everything with us, you know? we never really patched things up.

i don't know, but... never mind. i just don't know."