I stared out the window watching the rain fall as we made our way back to the hotel. Shawn was driving and Gracie and Alex was in the back of the car sleeping.
"Shawn I don't know what I'm going to do about Alex, I can't take her in. That's a little too much for me I'm only 22."
"Well Beyonce don't take her in."
"I just feel bad because you know I can take her in, I just don't want to."
"But she's not your responsibly. You're not captain save a child." "You have to think about it. If you was to take her in you'll have Gracie, Solange and her son or daughter, our baby, plus Alex. All under the age of 18 and you only have two bedrooms, not to mention you're trying to go back to school in August."
I turned around and saw the two of them sound sleep. When I added up all the kids before I honestly forgot about my niece or nephew. I already promised Solange that she could live with me once I finished out this semester and I'm keeping that promise. She'll need my help raising her child and I'll need her help raising mine. I know Shawn will be there but it's nothing like having your sister by your side and I need my sister. "Shawn I'll keep her for now and I'll bring her back to New York with me but it will only be temporally, until we find her parents. I can't go through a trial, that's not my battle. I feel bad about what happen to her but she's not my child and can't take responsibility for her. I mean maybe if I was little older and had some type of order in life but I don't. I don't even know what I'm going to do with Gracie on Monday when I go back to school and now I'm going to have to worry about Alex too and I can't miss school because I have finals."
"Beyonce don't worry about it I'll watch them for you."
"Shawn I can't ask you to that, maybe if it was just Gracie. But Alex too, and you have to work."
"Beyonce it's fine, I can take them to work with me."
"Are you sure?"
"Yea."
"Well thanks in advance and it'll just be for one day because when I get out of class I'm going to enroll Gracie into school."
"What about Alex?"
"See that's the thing I don't know anything about this little girl. I don't know her from a can of paint."
"Well Bey you have to put her in school, you don't want her to get behind."
"Right. Well I guess I'll be enrolling the both of them in school Monday."
"So are you still going back to New York Thursday or...?"
"Yea Shawn I'm getting the hell out of this state, nothing ever good comes from this place. Tomorrow is Wednesday and I have to get the guardianship papers for Alex and then after that I have to visit Angie and Ty. I'll probably go to the shop and get my hair done and Alex will probably want her hair done too so I'll do that for her."
"And what is me and Gracie suppose to do?"
I laughed. "You could start searching for Alex parents and Gracie can help you."
Shawn straight faced. "Ok and then after we leave the shop I have to go visit my grandma so that she can meet Gracie and then I have to visit Michelle parents."
"And you're going to do all of that in one day?"
"Yea I have to and hopefully I can go see my mom and Solange again because our plane leaves Thursday morning so I won't have time to see them."
"Bey my plane is here remember, it leaves when ever I say."
"Shawn I don't know about that. I've always been afraid of flying in small planes."
