I hope y'all don't get confuse.
(Beyonce POV)
I walked into the house and saw my dad in the kitchen studying the bible something that he often did. My little sister is coloring in her books without a care in the world and my mom is preparing dinner. I know a typical movie like family. I walked into the kitchen wearing a hoody and some sweat pants, something I just recently started doing. I sat down at the island and wrapped my arms around myself.
"Beyonce are you just waking up?" My mother asked barely paying attention to me.
"Yea, I had a really long day."
"Well now you're going to be up all night." My mom said.
"No I won't, I'm still tired."
"You've been sleeping a lot lately Beyonce, is everything ok?" My father asked, finally looking up from his bible.
"Actually it's something I really need to talk to you about." I said almost in a whisper.
"What is?" My mom asked.
"Umm I'm pregnant." I whispered.
"You're what?" My father asked.
"I'm pregnant."
"That's what I thought you said!" My father stood up and so did I. My little sister ran out of the kitchen and my grabbed my father's arm.
"Daddy I'm sorry." I said with tears in my eyes.
"You're not keeping it." He said. "And whose baby is it?"
"Carlos and daddy I don't want to have an abortion. It's mine and I want to keep it which is why I waited so long to tell you."
My father's jaw flexed something that it always did when he was pissed. At that very moment father freed himself from my mom and before I knew it his hands were around my neck and I was gasping for air.
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I sat up on the couch gasping for air as if the dream I just woke up from was actually real. Every since I arrived back in New York almost two weeks ago I've been having flashback dreams about my first pregnancy. I don't know if my current pregnancy is causing the nightmares or the fact that left Houston without patching things up with my father.
"Bey are you ok?!" Shawn asked as he rubbed my back. I guess I fell asleep on his lap during the movie.
"Yea, I'm fine it was just a dream."
"You've been having dreams like this since we got back."
"I know but I'm fine. Where are the girls it's almost their bedtime?"
"In Gracie's room."
I removed myself from the couch and went into Gracie's room. I opened the door and found the both of them jumping in the bed.
"Alex! Gracie! Stop it! Before one of you get hurt!" I screamed. "Alex go take bath and get ready for bed. Gracie find your pjs, Now!"
"Ok geez you don't have to yell." Alex said before jumping off Gracie's bed.
"Yea mommy you don't have to yell." Gracie said as she sat on her bed.
I don't know how much more I can take. Every since we've back from Houston, Gracie and Alex has been getting on my nerves. I'm ready to send Alex on the first flight back to Houston and as for Gracie well boarding school is sounding better and better. Neither of them don't have any type of respect for me. Now as for Shawn, they don't treat him the same way. They show him way more respect and I just don't understand what I'm doing wrong. Gracie wasn't always like this, it just started when Alex came over two weeks ago. Alex and Gracie both have been suspended from school already... I know y'all are wondering how the hell a 1st grader get suspended from school, well she pulled out a spork and threaten her teacher with it. Alex got suspended for skipping classes with a group of girls that she think is her friends. See I don't have time for that. Lately I've been sick and to tired to even attempt to look for a job and taking care of Gracie, Alex and myself isn't cheap, my finances are running low. I explained to Michelle everything that happen in Houston from Shawn cheating to me getting Alex. She said that taking Alex in was a mistake and so was forgiving Shawn. I took in Alex because I have a heart and I took in Shawn well because I need him more they he even know. What Shawn Doesn't Know.......
