I'm not telling Bey's secret until after the baby is born LOL but I will hint around it.
Seeing Gracie with an IV in her arm is breaking my heart. The doctor said that she is very dehydrated and they diagnose her with the flu. I told him that she hasn't really been outside because it's been too cold. I told that the only time she's been outside was when we were in Houston. He told me that could of been what brought the flu on. He said switching climates like that could make anyone sick but especially younger kids. So with that being said I couldn't help but blame myself for this. The doctor said that Gracie wasn't getting enough fluids and that's why she felt as though she couldn't move. Anyway Shawn is sitting in the corner and Alex right next to him. Alex is sleeping and Shawn looks lost in thought. I'm in the bed next Gracie watching her sleep.
"Bey?" Shawn whispered.
"Hmm."
"What's wrong?"
"What do you mean what's wrong, I mean look around Shawn isn't it obvious?"
"I'm not talking about that, I mean what's going on with us."
"Nothing."
"And that's the problem Beyonce. You don't kiss me anymore and we haven't had sex since we been back from Houston. What is the problem, are you still mad about Houston?"
"Shawn it's not the time or place."
"Then when."
"Ump I'll give you a hint....how bout when my daughter isn't laying up in a hospital bed."
"I don't understand you."
"Understand what?! Why I don't want to have sex with you." "For the past two weeks I've been chasing behind two really bad ass heathens, plus I just finished taking my finals, I cook, I clean, I play doctor, I play teacher, I play dolls, I color, I have to grocery shop damn near every other day, then on top of all that I'm pregnant. If I'm not doing all of that shit I'm pissing or puking all day and if I'm lucky I squeeze in a five minute nap. So I apologize for not wanting to drop my pants and my panties every time you get ready. As a matter of a fact if it would make you happy come on lets do it right here...Gracie is sleeping and so is Alex, come on Shawn have sex with me." I said as I removed myself from the bed. I walked in front of Shawn and he was giving me a look I never seen before. "Come on Shawn lets do it right here against the wall." I said taping the wall. "Take me Shawn. I spend most of the day making everyone happy except myself anyway so I might as well make my man happy too. Take me Shawn. Fuck me hard, make it hurt, I'll even let you poke me in the ass if that'll make you happy. Come on Corey lets do it." I said as I started to lift my shirt.
"Beyonce stop it! What is wrong with you? Talk to me."
I started to tear up. "Everything, all of this. Shawn my life is moving to fast. Like I'm only 22 with two kids plus one and now I'm talking about moving in with a guy that I've only known for what ten minutes. Shawn we barely even dated. I feel like I woke up one day twice my age. I feel 44 years old rather then 22. I don't go out, I don't see my friends anymore. This is just a lot more then I can handle. Shawn Alex has to go and we have to slow down. Until the baby is born I just want to date and I don't want to sex. For next 7 and a half months I just want to date and take things slow. I don't want to move in with you and all this you being at my house almost everyday has to stop. It's almost as if you're already living with me like Shawn go home. Let me live, let me enjoy being 22 at least for the next 7 and a half months. If you can do that for me I promise I'll give myself to you fully. I'll move in with you, hell I'll even marry you if that's what you want. Now I'm not going to cheat on you of course and I'm still your woman I just want to slow down. Like Shawn you can come home with me tonight but tomorrow you have to go and come Monday Alex is leaving. I don't know where she's going but she can't stay with me, I can't do it."
