(Beyonce POV)
"Dad!! " "Dad!!!" I heard Xavier yelling through Carter's door. He woke both of us up actually.
"Shhhh" I heard Carter say. "What do you want Xavier?"
"I need to talk to you. Can I come in?"
"Nawl I'm necked, I'll be out in a minute." Carter lied.
"Alright."
Carter sighed in relief.
"Thank God for lock doors." I whispered.
"Yea, I'll be right back."
"Ok."
Carter kissed me and went to see what Xavier wanted. This was the first time we almost got caught and I'm sure it won't be the last.
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*Two Months Later
Thanksgiving is in a few more days so I'm in the mist of packing. Usually on Thanksgiving I would go home with Michelle but this year I was really seriously thinking about going home. I haven't spoken to my sister since I left Houston two months ago and it's been driving me crazy. Kelly is going home and she's taking her new boo Xavier which means Shawn will be alone. I really want to ask him to come home with me but I remember him telling me that he hates Thanksgiving because years ago, the day before Thanksgiving Vanessa passed away. Anyway Carter and I have grown really close in the past few months, so close that I wish we could make our relationship public. The craziest thing about our relationship is we we've been together for a little over two months and we haven't had sex. Now usually I would of gave up on him because well I love sex but it's something about him that won't allow me to. I wouldn't say that I love him but I really do like him a lot. Speaking of devil, it's him calling now.
"Hello." I answered.
"Hey Beybey"
"What's up Shawn?"
"Nothing I was just thinking about you."
"Oh same here." I laughed.
"What where you thinking about me for?"
"Well Shawn you know I'm going back to Houston tomorrow for Thanksgiving break."
"Mmmhm."
"Yea, I'm thinking about going to visit my family so I can check on my sister and I was thinking that since Xavier is going with Kelly for Thanksgiving maybe you could come with me?"
"Yea I'll come with you shorty but only on one condition."
"And what's that?"
"I'm going to visit my ma in a few, so come with me."
"You want me to meet your mama?"
"Yea."
"But what about Xavier, what if she mention me to him or something?"
"Trust me, she won't."
"Ok, but if this turn out bad it's on you."
"Aight. I can take the blame for it. I'll pick you up in an hour and wear something comfortable."
"Why what are we doing?"
"You always have to ask questions."
"So.."
"Just dress comfortably and I'll see you in a few."
I smacked my lips. "Alright Shawn, bye."
"Bye."
I hung up the phone and decided what I was wearing was fine. I was dressed in some grey sweat pants with a white Tshirt and some blue and grey Vans. I then went into the living room and found Michelle and Kelly eating popcorn and watching tv. I sat next to Michelle and then I reached over her and snatched the popcorn away from Kelly. Even though my relationship with Kelly is not how it use to be she's still my girl.
"Damn Bey all you had to do was ask." She yelled. One thing we don't play about in this house is our food. No sir.
"Can I have some popcorn?" I said as I put a hand full in my mouth.
"No." Kelly said as she snatched the bowl back. Me and Michelle laughed.
"So Michelle I don't think I'll be able to come home with you this Thanksgiving. I still haven't heard from Solange so I'm going to use this mini vacation to go visit her."
"Ok so where are you going to stay?"
"I'm going to get a room."
"You know you can still stay with me."
Now I would of stayed with her if Carter wasn't coming.
"Nawl, I'll get a room."
"Ok."
"So Beyonce how are things with you and Daddy Carter? I never hear you talk about him?" Kelly asked.
"Ummm we decided to break things off a long time ago. We couldn't hurt Xavier like that." I lied.
"Liar." She yelled out.
"If you wasn't so wrapped in my ex.... I mean Xavier you would know."
"Beyonce are you still mad about that? It's been two months."
My phone vibrated and I checked the text.
"Look yall I'll be back in a few hours."
"Where you going?" Michelle asked.
"I don't know, out of here though."
She laughed. "Ok Beyonce."
I laughed too. I know her nosey ass saw that text from Carter.
"Alright see yall."
"See you." They both said.
I hopped into Carter's car and closed the door.
"You're early Carter." I said as I kissed him.
"Hi to you too."
"Hi. Shawn. So where does your mother live?"
"You'll see."
We drove a while until we made it to this beautiful home in Manhattan.
"Bey I should probably tell you something about my mom."
"What is it Shawn?"
"My mom had a stroke years ago and now she suffers from a speech impairment and she lost a lot of her memory and she has a difficult time remembering things. Her long term memory is ok but her short term not so much."
I nodded. "I'm sorry Shawn."
"Don't be. She's well taking care of and she's getting the help she needs. She's living and she's well and happy."
"Ok, can we go in now."
"You are very confident."
"And you love it."
I smiled and we walked into Mrs. Carter's home.
"Ma!!!" Carter yelled.
"Boy don-don-don't you be yel-yelling in ma house." Mrs. Carter said as she was walking down the stairs.
"Sorry ma. Look I have someone I want you to meet." Carter explained as he hugged and kissed his mother.
When Carter said that she took one look at me and started signing something to Carter. I watched as Carter read her hand movement and then started signing back to her. Now I'm sure she's not deaf but communicating with her hands seem to be easier then talking.
"Ma." Carter started. "This is Beyonce and I'm spending Thanksgiving with her and her family but I promise to come back to visit you soon."
"Nice to-to meet you, Beynotsay. "
"Its BeyONsay..." I explained "And nice to meet you too."
She signed.
"She said that she senses something on you." Shawn explained.
"What do you sense?" I asked Mrs. Carter.
She signed.
"A new found happiness." Carter said.
I smiled. If only she knew.
For the rest of the night until about 8 we ate dinner, talked about everything and I even learned how to sign a few words, though I'll probably forget by tomorrow. Her physical therapist also came over and we all got a nice work out, which probably why he told me to dress comfortable. We said our goodbyes and Carter drove me home. When we arrived we noticed Xavier's car in the driveway. I rolled my eyes.
"Carter I'll see you tomorrow alright."
"Alright Bey."
"Bye." I kissed him.
I quickly got out of his car and he drove off. Usually he'll wait until I get in or walk me to the door but, Xavier's here. I walked in and saw Kelly and Xavier making out on the couch...disrespectful ass cunts.
"Oh we are sorry Bey." Kelly said.
"Oh no don't mind me, I was just about to go throw up." I rolled my eyes and went back into my bedroom. To be honest I'm tired of hiding this secret from Xavier, he and Kelly sure as hell is not trying to keep their relationship a secret. Anyway I took a really quick shower and went to bed. The next morning I woke up about 5 because my plane back to Houston leave at 7. I forced myself out of bed, showered and had a quick breakfast. While I was eating Xavier, Kelly, and Michelle came out to join me.
"Morning everyone." Michelle spoke.
"Good morning." We responded.
"So Beyonce I know this is a little weird but we was wondering if you wanted to drive back to Houston with us. We still have a few more days before Thanksgiving so we were thinking instead of taking a plane we could cash in our tickets and use the money for gas and go site seeing or something." Kelly asked. "We're about to leave now."In the car for over 24 hours with my bestfriend, my ex boyfriend and my backstabbing friend, yea I don't think so, I pass."
"Beyonce I didn't stab you in the back. What I did is nothing compared to what you're doing or did, but we won't talk about that."
"Really Kelly..."
"Yes, Really Beyonce. You know what I'm happy you're choosing not to come, I want these next few days to be drama free."
"Ok yall let's just leave. Beyonce I'll see you in a few days, please don't forget to stop by my mom's house. She really misses you."
"Ok Chelle I won't and I'll see you soon."
They all walked out the house and soon after I followed them except I grabbed my bags and went over Shawn's house.
(Shawn POV)
I have a lot plan for this week so I hope Bey is ready. I grabbed my bags and made my way back downstairs. Next thing I knew we were at our hour hotel in Houston.
"So Beyonce it's still early so what do you want to do today?"
"I really want to go see my sister and then maybe we can go grab some dinner."
"Am I invited this time?"
"Of course Carter. I promise I won't leave your side this time."
"Ok so what restaurant are we going to?"
"Ummmm I really want some soul food."
"Soul food..."
"Yea Carter the kind of food that blesses your soul, and stick to your ribs."
"I know what soul food is but I don't know about eating it here, I only eat my ma's soul food."
"Carter chill I know this great restaurant."
"Alright Juvenile but if I end up getting sick, you'll be cleaning it up."
She laughed. "Alright Shawn I got you, I promise."
She kissed me. "Are you ready to leave."
"Yea."
We took a taxi to Bey's parents house and I noticed the immediately that sadness over came her again. And that's when I knew that it wasn't just some guy that hurt her. It was actually her family, I just know what they did that was so bad.
(Beyonce POV)
"Shawn are you ready?"
"Yea."
We stepped out the taxi and Shawn took me by the hand. We walked up to the door and knocked. Solange came outside and closed the door behind her.
"Omg Beyonce I've missed you so much." She hugged and kissed me. "But Beyonce you can't be here." She whispered.
"Solange what's been going on? Why haven't I heard from you in two months and what do you mean I can't be here?"
"Listen Beyonce a lot has changed since you left that day. Mom and dad are not getting alone anymore.The only thing they do is fight. And mom is talking about getting a divorce.
"Because of me?"
"No, well a little bit of it has something to do with you and I but do you remember Mrs. Evans from church?"
"Yea the choir director?"
"Well she just had a baby and it's not Dr. Evans it's dad."
"What!?"
"Mrs. Evans named him Nixon."
Some Christian I thought....
"So why can't I be here?"
"Dad is pissed at you. He blocked your phone number on everyone's phone and that's why I haven't called or been able to answer your calls. Beyonce if he catches you here he is going to be pissed."
"Solange I don't want to see them. I just want to take you out for lunch."
"Ok Bey lets go before dad comes out looking for me."
I know that sneaking my sister out the house is not the best idea but what else could I do? I shouldn't have to sneak anyway. Carter had hell no written all over his face but he didn't say anything. We all got into the taxi and ended up at Michelle's father's restaurant. We ordered our food and took a seat in the back of the restaurant.
"So Shawn is my sister treating you right?" Solange asked. "I know you've been treating her right since she's glowing. I haven't seen her this happy in a while."
I laughed. "Solange bye."
"No seriously Bey."
I looked at Carter. "So Carter how have I been treating you."
"Alright I guess, you are kind of a pain in the ass."
I laughed. "What ever Corey." "Solange do you know what you're going to do with baby?"
"No, mom want me to keep him but dad said no. He said it's either him or the baby."
"You're pregnant?" Carter asked in disbelief.
"Yea, almost 3 and a half months now."
"Carter what do you think about teenage mothers and be honest." I asked.
He looked at Solange and then back at me.
"I believe that everything happens for a reason. So if you're pregnant maybe it's meant to be. It may not be meant for you to be a mom but it could be meant for someone else to be a mom. Solange if you're not ready to be a mom maybe your child could be a gift to someone else. But if you're a hundred percent sure that you're ready, I say go for it."
I didn't say anything but I felt Solange burning a whole through my face with her eyes.
"I want to keep him but I just want to be sure that everyone is ok with it."
I was holding back tears. I know my sister better then I know myself. She wants her baby she just don't want to make me feel some type of way by keeping it.
"Solange who cares about what everybody else think. Keep your baby he or she is yours and nobody has a right to take him from you."
"Will you help me with him."
"I'll help you as much as I can."
"Bey I was wondering if maybe once you finished school and got a job and stuff, could I maybe come and live with you?"
"Solange you are always welcome to come stay with me."
"Good because your parents are crazy." She laughed.
"My parents?!?!"
"Yea YOUR parents."
"What ever Solange."
We talked a little bit longer until they brought us our food. Carter picked around his food while Solange and I ate like we haven't eating in years. After dinner Carter volunteered to take us to the Carnival.
"Omg Bey can please get on the fairest wheel?"
"Go right ahead Solange, I don't care what you do."
"Bey you and Carter have to come with me."
"Carter can go if he want but Im not going. You know how I feel about fairest wheels."
"Beyonce what's wrong with the fairest wheel?" Carter asked.
"When we were younger we went to the carnival and Bey was dying to get on the fairest wheel so we did. And everything was fine until our cart made it to the very top and stopped. Bey freaked out so much that she actually-"
"Ok Solange he get the point."
"No I didn't tell the best part yet."
"Let her get to the best part Beyonce."
I rolled my eyes.
"As I was saying, Beyonce got so freaked out that she peed on herself. And Carter, Shawn or Corey or what ever your name is when I say she peed I mean really peed like when we finally got down from the ride it look like the both of us had peed. I was soaked in my sisters pee."
Solange and Carter started cracking up laughing.
"Its not that funny."
"Oh Bey don't get mad, it's not our fault you could never control your bladder. You know Shawn, Corey, Carter Bey didn't stop peeing on herself until she-"
"Ok SOLANGE that's enough!!!! And Corey stop laughing."
"I apologize Pissypot." Carter said while laughing.
"You know what Corey kiss my ass." I said as I started walk away."
"Beyonce come here, Im sorry forreal." He laughed some more. "Bey."
I stopped walking and turned to face Corey. "What?"
"I'm sorry ok." He kissed me and I returned the kiss adding tongue.
"Ewwwwww." Solange commented.
"Solange please, you know what a kiss is."
She rolled her eyes. "Can we get on the fairest wheel now."
"Yea, lets go. Come on Bey I'll hold your hand."
"Shawn I don't know."
"Come on Beyonce...." Solange pleaded.
"Come on babe I got you. Do you trust me?"
"Yea I trust you Shawn."
"Do you trust that I'll never leave you?"
I knew Shawn meant more then the ride when he said that. Truth is when Shawn preached about teenage mothers earlier I almost told him about myself. I almost trusted him with that part of me."
"Shawn I trust you."
He smiled. "Good."
He took me by the hand and we all walked over to the fairest wheel. Some guy strapped us in and soon I was in the air trying to control my bladder.
"See this isn't so bad now is it Bey?"
"Corey if you let go of me imma kill you."
He laughed. "I got you."
"Ok Shawn, I believe you."
"You know I noticed something else about you."
"What else did you notice about me Shawn?" I asked as I rested my head on his shoulder.
"I notice the only time you actually call me Shawn is when you find comfort in me. If I make you mad you'll call me Corey and if you're trying to be funny I'm Carter."
"Not true, you're what ever I feel like calling you at that moment."
"Mmmhmm sure."
I laughed. To be honest he's telling the truth though I've never actually been mad at him.
I relaxed for the rest of the ride and I really felt comfortable in his arms and to my surprise he never let go of me. When the ride came to a complete stop I thanked god we stopped on the ground. We stepped out the ride and waited for Solange to be let down.
"Shawn thank you."
"For what?"
"For today. I haven't spent this much time and had this much fun with her in a long time."
"Yea but this was your idea."
"I know but you're great with her, she absolutely love you."
"Well I have that affect on women."
I laughed. "What ever." I noticed Solange walking towards us. "Can you win us some prizes Carter?"
"I'll try."
We all walked over to the shooting both.
"Ok Carter you can do it baby." I watched Carter aim at the ducks.... he missed all six shoots.
"Awwwww baby."
"Shawn, Corey, or Carter try again I really want a bear." Solange yelled.
"Solange his name is Shawn." I laughed.
Carter tried again and missed all 6 shots again. Solange and I laughed.
"Look y'all laughing is throwing me off." He said.
"We're sorry try again Carter." I yelled.
This time he made 3 out of 6 shots.
"See I told y'all." He said.
"You did good baby." I said trying to contain my laughter.
"So what did I win?" He asked the host.
"You win one of those." He said as he pointed to the smallest bears he had. And that did it, it pushed us over the edge. Solange and I both died from laughter. "Omgg so Bey do you want it or should I take it?"
"Umm Solange maybe we can split it. I'll take the torso and you take the arms and legs." We started laughing again.
"Both of y'all can shut up. Sir can I just buy two of the bigger ones?"
"Sure if you want."
Carter paid for two of the larger bears and gave me one and Solange took the other one.
"Thank you baby." I said as I tried to kiss him. "Nawl man get away from me."
I laughed some more. "Carter I'm sorry."
"Thank you Shawn Corey or Carter."
"What ever."
"Stop being a baby Carter and kiss me."
Shawn gave me a quick peck on the lips.
"Shawn that was not a kiss."
He stopped and grabbed me by the waist and kissed me with tongue. Our kiss lasted a good while.
"Ummm are y'all done yet?" Solange asked.
Carter and I laughed.
"Do y'all want some hot dogs or pretzels or something?" Carter asked.
"Yea. I'm starving" Solange answered.
"Solange we just ate about two hours ago."
"I ate two hours ago but the baby didn't. He or she is starving."
I shook my head. "What do you want to eat?"
"This carnival food isn't going to do it can we go to McDonalds or something? The baby wants a crispy chicken sandwich, a large fry and a four piece nugget with sweet and sour sause, a frosty and sprite."
"Are sure you're not having twins?" Carter asked.
"Don't curse me Shawn, Corey, or Carter."
"You know you can just call me Shawn."
"Naaaaah I like saying all three."
I shook my head. "Come on y'all it's getting late anyway." I said.
We went to McDonalds and Solange got her food. We ate in and I ended up getting the fish. Carter said he'll get something from the hotel. After we finish eating we went back to my parents house."
"Umm sir can you wait?" I asked the taxi driver.
"I've been waiting on y'all all day."
"Ok just give me five minutes gosh."
"Bye Shawn, Corey, Carter."
"See you Solange."
I walked Solange to the door and Carter waited in the taxi.
"Bey thank you for today I really had a good time."
"Anytime Solange."
"So are you serious about me coming to stay with you after you get situated."
"Of course."
"I love you Bey." She said as she hugged me. "I love you too."
"Solange where have you been!!!" My father yelled.
"I took her out to dinner and to the carnival."
"Solange I thought I told you I didn't want you talking to her anymore."
"She's my sister."
"I don't care get in the house!!"
"Bey I'll call you."
"No you want."
Solange rolled her eyes and went into the house.
"Dad why do you hate me so much?"
"Because you ruined this family." He said as he went back into the house.
I shook my head and walked back to the taxi. I can't even get mad at him because believe me thefeeling is mutual.
I got back in the taxi and we made our way back to the hotel. I showered first and then Carter. While he was showering I decided to pull out my poetry book. Carter Inspired.
Just as I was finishing up Carter starting climbing into bed.
"What are to you doing?" He asked.
"Just finishing up a poem. Do you want here a little?"
"You're letting me hear your poetry?"
"Yea because this one is Carter inspired and I trust you."
"Ok read it."
"Its called Halo.....ok"
"Ok read it."
Halo
Remember those walls I built?
Well, baby they're tumbling down
And they didn't even put up a fight
They didn't even make a sound
I found a way to let you in
But, I never really had a doubt
Standing in the light of your halo
I got my angel now
It's like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
It's the risk that I'm taking
I ain't never gonna shut you out!
Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby, I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby, I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away
I can feel your halo, halo, halo
I can see your halo, halo, halo
I can feel your halo, halo, halo
I can see your halo, halo...
Halo, ooh ooh
Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkest night
You're the only one that I want
Think I'm addicted to your light
I swore I'd never fall again
But this don't even feel like falling
Gravity can't forget to pull me back to the ground again
And It's like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
It's the risk that I'm taking
I'm never gonna shut you out!
Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby, I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby, I can feel your halo
I pray it won't fade away
I can feel your halo, halo, halo
I can see your halo, halo, halo
I can feel your halo, halo, halo
I can see your halo, halo...
Halo, ooh ooh...
I can feel your halo, halo, halo
I can see your halo, halo, halo
I can feel your halo, halo, halo
I can see your halo, halo...
Halo, ooh ooh
Halo, ooh ooh
Halo, ooh ooh, oh
Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby, I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby, I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away
I can feel your halo, halo, halo
I can see your halo, halo, halo
I can feel your halo, halo, halo
I can see your halo, halo...
Halo, ooh oh...
I can feel your halo, halo, halo
I can see your halo, halo, halo
I can feel your halo, halo, halo
I can see your halo, halo...
Halo, ooh oh...
"So what do you think?"
"I think its beautiful and deep. Beyonce I am happy that I'm finally able to break down those walls."
I didn't say anything for a minute.
"Carter you I express myself better through poetry so here is another poem for you. It's about our relationship.
No, No, No
You'll be sayin'
No, no, no, no, no
When it's really
Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes
You'll be sayin'
No, no, no, no, no
When it's really
Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes
You'll be sayin'
No, no, no, no, no
When it's really
Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes
You'll be sayin'
No, no, no, no, no
When it's really
Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes
Boy, I know you want me
I can see it in your eyes
But you keep on frontin'
Won't you say what's on your mind
'Cause each and every time you near me
You give me signs
But when I ask you, "What's the deal?"
You hold it all inside
If you wanna be with me
You gotta keep it real
Tell me what's goin' on
Tell me how you feel
'Cause boy I know you want me
Just as much as I want you
So come and get my love
It's all here for you
You'll be sayin'
No, no, no, no, no
When it's really
Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes
You'll be sayin'
No, no, no, no, no
When it's really
Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes
You'll be sayin'
No, no, no, no, no
When it's really
Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes
You'll be sayin'
No, no, no, no, no
When it's really
Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes
If you keep actin' this way
You're gonna lose my love
I ain't got no time to play
You better hurry up
'Cause every time I come around
And cruise around your way
I see you on the corner
But you don't know what to say
When I walk up to you baby
You seem so shy
What's the problem baby
Never had a girl like I
I can see right through you
And you know you wanna be mine
So get your act together
'Cause you're running out of time
You'll be sayin'
No, no, no, no, no
When it's really
Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes
You'll be sayin'
No, no, no, no, no
When it's really
Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes
You'll be sayin'
No, no, no, no, no
When it's really
Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes
You'll be sayin'
No, no, no, no, no
When it's really
Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes
You say, yes
You won't regret, I must confess
I'm really feelin' you
Anything you've ever wanted before
Is right here for you, for you
Don't worry what they say
Just bring you're love away
'Cause your friends can't do
What I can for you
I don't wanna hear you say
Baby tell me
Tell me, yes
Don't tell me, no
I looked at him.
"What do want me to say?"
I didn't say anything.
"What do you want to hear me say what?"
"I want to hear say that you want me just as much as I want you. I want to hear you say yes to me Shawn. I want to give myself to you fully."
"How can you give yourself to me fully when you won't even tell me what's keeping you from loving me."
"Shawn I have love for you. Why can't that be enough?"
"Because I love you."
I shook my head trying to shake away the tears.
"Shawn you can't love me."
"Why not?"
"Because I can't love you back."
"Why not?"
"Because Shawn she don't love me and if she don't love me then I don't deserve anyone else's love."
"Beyonce who don't love you?"
I shook my head.
"Beyonce tell me. What have you been hiding from me? Why do you hate your parents so much?"
I don't know how he did it. He made me fall in love with him, like he said he would. And he did it in only two and a half months. I felt my leg starting to shake, something that it always did when I get worked up.
"My daughter Shawn."
"Your daughter?"
I nodded. "My parents made me give her up for adoption when I was only 17. They turned her over to social services. Remember when I told you about that phase I was going through.....well I didn't get over it by myself. Carlos helped me and I ended up falling in love with him, well at least I thought I did. Anyway I ended up pregnant and my parents didn't approve. I remember being in the room when they came in and took her. She was laying on my chest and I knew they was coming. They came in with my parents and my dad took her out of my arms and handed her over to some lady. She told me that she'll try her best to find her a good home. She then asked me did I want to name her but my father cut me off before I could say anything." "No, it'll just make things harder." "I remember him saying." The lady then nodded and took her away. I named her Nylah but it was never official, I didn't sign her birth certificate. And to this day I hate my parents for what they did. I can never forgive them. Even if one day she magically appear and I get her back I still will never forgive them for it. Which is why I don't have a problem with Solange coming to live with me, I don't want her to have to go through what I went through. You know Shawn my father claims he's a Christian but he has a baby on the way by the choir director at the church and not only that today he blamed me for ruining the family. He even blames me for Solange pregnancy. I guess in his eyes I'm the devil, nothing good could ever come from me."
I wiped my tears. "Shawn even though it may seem like I have all my shit together, I don't. In reality I'm not that girl who seduced you in your kitchen. I'm the complete opposite of her. In reality I'm just Beyonce a girl that's broken and in need of some serious loving." I joked. "You know Shawn I hate you. I hate you for making me love you and in only two months. I hate you for loving me, this was not suppose to happen this way."
"Beyonce I am so sorry about what happen to your daughter and if you want me too i'll help you look for her."
"Shawn I looked everywhere for her. Its almost impossible to locate her without a name."
"Beyonce I'll find her for you."
I look into his eyes and I could tell that he was really serious.
"Shawn I want you to make love to me tonight, right now."
"Ok."
(Shawn POV)
I grabbed a few condoms and without another word I pulled her onto my lap and started tonguing her down. After a few seconds she broke the kiss and smiled and then removed her shirt. "I love you Carter." She said. "I love you too." I went back to kissing her and she unsnapped her bra strap. I then turned over so now she was on her back and I on top. I then took her breast into my hands and started gently massaging them. "Carter you're not going to break them.' I heard her say. That let me know she's the type that likes it rough. I used more of my strength to massage her breast and that brought moans deep in her throat. She broke the kiss and I felt her hands touch my head. She uses her strength to push my head into her chest and instinctively I put one of her cups into my mouth. "Shawwwwnnn" She moaned. I started using more teeth then tongue and I found out that she loved that even more. After a few seconds I stopped and went to work on her other cup. One thing I love about making love for the first time is learning the body and learning what she likes, love, hates, and can't tolerate. She suddenly pushed me off of her. "Shawn I want to taste you.." She whispered. I watched as her eyes met the print in my boxer shorts. She smiled and helped my slide them down.
(Beyonce POV)
One thing I noticed when I got Shawn's shorts down is that he's bigger then Xavier and Carlos. I thought about how much I could take in without gagging. I didn't want to spend to much time thinking about so I just went for it.
(Shawn's POV)
In one swift move she took my entire length into her mouth. It felt like home. Her mouth adjusted to the size of my manhood perfectly, so much that it sent chills up my spine.
(Beyonce's POV)
"Dammmmnnn" I heard him call out.
(Shawn's POV)
Her tongue worked around my length so well that it was bringing me some intense pleasure. Pleasure I haven't felt in a long time. She knows what's she doing because even those she's pleasuring the hell out of me right now, she's careful not to send me over the edge too soon. She worked her tongue around me for about 13 minutes before I ready to cum.
(Beyonce's POV)
"I'm about to cum" I heard him say. I could tell that he wasn't sure about cumming into my mouth but to be honest I preferred him to do it there then on my face. I suck harder and faster basically giving him my permission to cum and he did. I tried my best to swallow all of it but it was more then I could handle. So some did end up on the bed sheets but not much. I was ready for two but he stopped me. "Chill its sensitive." He said before flipping me around on my back. "My turn." He said and in one swift move he snatched my panties off. I'm sure I'll have a bruise around my pantie line in the morning. I looked at Carter looking at me and then I realized something. Carter has some big lips, what if he can....."
(Shawn's POV)
The sight took my breath away. She smelled of lavender and vanilla I think but I can't be sure. But what ever the smell was it was mouth watering and I couldn't wait to taste. Without warning I slipped my tongue in and started feasting like a starving child. I moved my tongue around in search of all her spots. "Sha--" she moaned. That must be one. I continued my search. I felt her finger nails deep inside my back, that must be another one. I continued feasting and circling my tongue. I knew I was blowing her mind when she tried closing her legs. I stopped her, spreaded them wider, grabbed her waist and went in deeper. "Coreeeeyyyy!!!" She called out as she tried to run. I tighten my grip and without warning she came like a waterfall and I slurped up all her juices. When she came down from her high I noticed that she looked like she ready for bed but I was just getting started. I slipped on a condom and without warning I went in deep and this time using my dick. Her eyes flew open. I started taking long delicate strokes inside of her.
(Beyonce POV)
It took a minute for my body to adjust to his size but once I did, him being in me feels like heaven. Once I was filling in tone with him I asked him to speed up and he did. "Shhhaaaaawwwwnnnn" I called out. "Yessssssss" I screamed as he filled me up, hitting all my spots. I felt my breaths becoming weaker the more he thrust inside of me. "Bey you feel to damn good." I heard him say in betwen grunts. "You too baby." I responded. "Harder Shawn." He went harder and deeper hitting spots I didn't even know I had. The temperature in the room is 65 degrees but it seems about 98 right now. Shawn and I had nothing between us but sweat.
(Shawn's POV)
I felt her body tighten up around me so I knew she was ready to cum. "Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh......" I heard her call out. She came and it took me me over the edge and I came right after she did.
(Beyonce's POV)
When Shawn removed himself from me I wiped the sweat from my forehead. "I have to per."
He laughed. "Well go pee." I went to bathroom handled my business and then crawl back in bed with my man. I laid my head on chest and we both went right to sleep.
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Excuse the typeOs I'm to lazy to proofread.
FMOT @Its_KaeMarieIV
