It Started at Vidocon

chapter fifteen

I turned on the camera.

"Hey guys its Paislyn and I think I habe some explaoning to do so lets get started. First let me say im sorry. Im sorry thst ive been gone so long, im sorry that we didmt tell you guys anything, ive been unactive In twitter and knstagram and im just sorry. Let me begin with vidcon. It was my mine and Hopes first vidcon and we were really excited. So on the first day we had a meet and greet and I was standing beside Tyler oakley. Me and him instantly became friends and then him and Hope hit it off. They have been together for awhile now. And then on the second day we had a brunch party on the roof for all the youtubers to attend. Thats where I met Connor Franta, you guys know from past Q&A's and past videos that I love Connor I think he is the cutest, funniest, sweetest youtuber in the whole world. Little did I know that talkikg to him that day would lead to us dating and moving in together. I woukd have never imagined in a million years that me, Paislyn Grace, would ever be abke to say "yeah Connor Franta is my boyfriend" and things are great between js still. Then when we became a couple on youtube and instagram and let you guys knkw we were together the hate started flowing in and I would sit in my bed at night while Connor was sleeping and I would read it and cry. I would cry for hours and hours. Until one night I felt the need to put myself In pain. So I cut my wrists. That went on for a couple months before me and Connor had a huge fight and I .ade my last video, which was a singing video, and he fojnd out layer that day that I cut and I was depressed. So he started working with me and soon things began to get better. A bunch of other shit has happened, me and Hope lost someone very close to us, we have been to meet and greets and we are all just so so so happy at this moment in time. And lets not forget the fact that me and Connor are engaged" I cut to a picture of my ring "so thats all I have for you today and I hope you remember that words do hurt people. Bye guys" I said closing my hand over the camera. I needed to do that.

"I am a lost boy in neverland usually hanging out with peter pan and ee get bored ee play in the woods always on the run from captain hook, Run run lost boy they say to me" I sang as I danced through the living room and I to the kitchen.

Connor grabbed my hand and spun me. I laughed and collapsed into his arms.

I kissed him and he held me close.
"I love you" I said

"I love you too, call Tyler and Hope I totally fuckig forgot that playlist in flordia is haooening and we have to book our hotel rooms!" He said. I picked up my phone and called Hope.

She said they would come over and we could work it out.

"I will walk this road ahead a hundred miles on my hands do I need to sgow you guess I gotta show you!" I sang as loud as I could. I checked me email and had the best email ever