It Started at Vidocon

chapter eight

*several months later*
Me and Hope lost our apartment, but it was okay becaise we had super cute boyfriends that let us move in with them.

Me and Connor were in a fight though.

"Connor please im fine I dont wanna talk about it!" I screamed wipin my tears.

"Baby please jist talk to me" he said pulling me into his chest. I let out anither sob and pushed away.

"I already did and I told you I was fine! Why cant you just leabe the topic alone?" I screamed again and ran out of our apartment.

I walked to the apartment complex beside ours and went up to Hope and Tylers apartment. I got my key out and opened there door.

"Can I use your camera?" I asked Hope walking straight to their equipment closet. I got out her camera and set it up in her bedroom.

"Hey guys its Paislyn here and I have an early video for yall that I am dedicstig to someone really special In my life because I feel like I have screwed everything up" I began to sing.

" You gotta go and getAngry at all of my honestyYou know I try but I don't do too well with apologiesI hope I don't run out of time, could someone call a referee?Cause I just need one more shot at forgivenessI know you know that IMade those mistakes maybe once or twiceAnd by once or twice I MeanMaybe a couple a hundred timesSo let me oh let meRedeem oh redeem oh myself tonightCause I just need one more shot at second chancesYeahIs it too late now to say sorry?Cause I'm missing more than just your body, ohhIs it too late now to say sorry?Yeah I know that I let you downIs it too late to say I'm sorry now?I'm sorry yeahSorry yeahSorryYeah I know that I let you downIs it too late to say I'm sorry now?I'll take every single piece of the blameIf you want me tooBut you know that there is no innocent one in this game for twoI'll go I'll go and thenYou go you go out and spill the truthCan we both say the words, say forget this?YeahIs it too late now to say sorry?Cause I'm missing more than just your body, ohhIs it too late now to say sorry?Yeah I know that I let you downIs it too late to say I'm sorry now?I'm not just trying to get you back on me (oh, no, no)Cause I'm missing more than just your body (your body), ohhIs it too late now to say sorry?Yeah I know that I let you downIs it too late to say I'm sorry now?I'm sorry (yeah)Sorry (oh)SorryYeah I know that I let you down (let you down)Is it too late to say I'm sorry now?I'm sorry (yeah)Sorry (oh)SorryYeah I know that I let you down (let you down)Is it too late to say I'm sorry now?" I ended the video and went and sat on the couch.

Tyler looked at me.
"Can I have your key back for our place?" He asked laughing.

I rolled my eyes and went to the fridge.

There was nothig good to eat so I walked back to where I parked my car and drove to taco bell.

I got what every one always ate and a box of extra 12 tacos.

I drove back to Hope and Tylers and gave them there food. When I walked in I saw Joey and his boyfriend Daniel sitting on the couch.

Joey junped up and we hugged.

"Joey! Danny!" I said hugging then both.

"Girl on the way over here I watched your new video, damn that voice give it to me!" Daniel said.

I laighed awkwardly. "Thanks but it wasnt that good I had been crying alot" I said before taking a bite of my taco.

"Wheres Connorito?"Joey asked

"Our apartment. We had a big fight and so I kinda ran away and came over here" I said

There was a knock at the door.
I opened it and immediatly felt a pair of lips on mine. They felt...wrong. these were not Connors lips.

I pulled away and saw Shane standing there.

"Shane what do you think your doing?" I said. I looked to see Connor standing behimd him. He shook his head and walked away.

"The video you made me was super sweet babe!" Shane said. I pushed him to the side and ran after Connor.

I followed him all the way to the park. He always came here when he needed to think or he was stressed out.

"Connor I can explain! That video was for you, Shane had the wrog idea and I was hoping wben I opened the door it would be you behind it not Shane" I said.

He turned to look at me. I could see his tears. I could feel his pain.

" look Paislyn go ahead and do what you want with Shane im not sure about this, you have been having these outburst and your sad all the time" he hissed scratchig the back of his kneck.

"Connor that just shows how much you dont fuckig pay attention!" I said pulling up my sleeves.

"Do you not see the stuff on twitter, on youtube, all of it telling me that im not worthy of you and that I should just kill mhself or better yet they will kill me for you so you dont have to worry about me? Connor ive been depressed for months" the last part came out a whisper.it was so quiet I dont even kniw if he heard me. He took my wrists in his hands and ran his fingers over my scars. He outlined every single one of them while I sobbed.

"Oh Paislyn I didnt know" he said.

"Because I didnt let you see, I wanted you to think I was stronger than that"