I Wasn't Expecting That • {r. m. l}

5.5

We were married in spring
You know I wouldn't change a

(6 months later)

Ella

"Are you nervous?" Rydel asked as she messed with my hair, making sure it looked naturally and effortlessly wavy. I shook my head.

"No, not at all actually." I said with a smile gracing my face.

"That's unusual. I hope that you're not going to get cold feet when you're about to go up the aisle and leave my brother at the alter." She laughed slowly while walking to the table that was next to us and gently picked up the white flower crown that I was wearing instead of a vail or tiara.

"Dont worry about that." I giggled. Of course I had an odd feeling; flutters in my stomach, but it seemed to me like a good kind of odd. One that I was exited for. "I guess, for the the whole of last year I was thinking about this day, scared that it wouldn't actually happen because of, well, you know." I didn't want to dwell on bad thoughts on that day. "I guess it eradicated all of the nervousness."

She pulled up her long bridesmaids dress and ran over to me, hugging me tightly. "I'm so glad that you're about to become my sister." She smiled. "I love you as much as I love all of my brothers, but maybe a tiny bit more because girls are better." I laughed at her jokey words and she did too.

We kept up small talk as she placed the white flower crown on my head and put it securely into place. She then added some more powder to my face, along with mascara and some light pink lipstick. I turned around and looked in the mirror after she was done, I gasped.

I had never really thought of myself as beautiful until that moment. I guess most girls don't because you always find something to pick out, some flaw that makes you completely inferior. Over the year that I had been trying to get better, the crushing my reality that I was merely mortal and even though I was young there was a possibly fatal dark cloud looming over me. It was then that I wanted to save myself and as I got thinner and weaker and I obsessively worried about things that could happen that would make me one hundred times worse; I thought that even though I wasn't perfect, I wasn't a completely disgusting creature. I found things about myself that I loved and would miss, that I didn't want to miss.

But still, looking into the floor length mirror, I was surprised. The white dress was floor length; it was straight across my chest and had short, loose, sleeves that hung off my shoulders and stopped when that extra panel of cloth over the top did. The top layer ended above my stomach and had lace on the sleeves and along it. The bottom half of the dress flowed out slowly but not poofy at all. The bottom of the dress had more pace along the hem. It was simple and a hippie style. I was completely in love with it. My makeup was simple which was what I always went for and my hair was in natural waves with the matching flower crown on.

There was a knock on the door and my dad walked in, I turned around and he put his hand over his mouth. He looked like he was about to cry. "You're all grown up." He opened his arms and I walked into them slowly. "It's time."

I nodded and we all walked outside together. The venue was beautiful. It was a woodland type location like I wanted but right in front of the ocean like Rocky had wanted. Instead of sand and a beach like he had originally planned it had trees and short grass. The aisle was marked with white lanterns that I thought was beautiful and there were fairy lights along the top of the aisle too. There were guests on either side of the lanterns, not many, it was a small ceremony, all of our friends and family, they were enough though.

Miranda, Rydel, Courtney and Savannah lined up behind me in there order and the music began to play. My dad linked our arms and began to lead me down the aisle. I looked to the opposite end of the aisle and saw Rocky, he was facing away from me but I could tell that he wanted to turn around. Riker, Ross, Ryland and Ellington were stood next to him and Riker was whispering something to him. I tried to lip read and it looked along the lines of she looks amazing, bro. But I couldn't be sure.