[I have to end this soon I'm running out of ideas]
The closer the wedding got the colder my feet got. I could only ask myself if this was truly a good idea. Of course I wanted to spend my life with him and be around him forever but were we truly ready? It was scary to think as soon as this happened there was no backing out. I mean there was but what would be the point of a divorce if I can't live without him?
"Three more days until you're Mr. Wentz" Brendon said smiling while sitting down next to me. We took a walk to a park while Ryan and Pete were at work. Brendon quit. He couldn't stand being there without me.
"I'm not sure I still wanna do this" I admitted. His smile dissolved into a frown.
"Why?" he asked.
"I'm not sure. Is this really a good idea?" I asked.
"Yes!" he yelled "Patrick you love him and he loves you! He's the first man you've ever loved you're gonna be happy. No matter how much I disapprove of the dick sucking dirt bag I know he's going to make you so happy. He loves you so much"
"Dick sucking dirt bag that ones new" I mumbled "Mind not insulting him?"
"You know I can't help it" He ruffled my hair smiling "Please get married. You deserve happiness from all the shit you've been through. You deserve so much happiness"
"Alright. You're right. Thank you Brendon"
"Anytime"
•••••
Brendon waited with me on the park bench for Pete. He was picking me up and taking me out to dinner. I had a cigarette dangling from my lips.
"Are you ever gonna quit?" he asked lighting his own.
"Are you?" I asked. He laughed a little.
"Funny" he said dully. Petes fancy car pulled up besides us. I put the cigarette out on the ground.
"Bye sunshine" Brendon said kissing my cheek.
"Bye honey remember to pick up our son from daycare" I said opening the door of the car.
"Oh but it's your day!" he whined "He likes you better you're the nicer dad!"
"I love you" I said laughing.
"Love you sunshine" he responded. I got in and shut the door. He slid his hand into mine. His sunglasses covered his hazel eyes. He smiled at the road ahead.
"Lets go sunshine" he said speeding off. I cuddled myself on his arm. "I missed you love"
"I missed you more. I think you should take off work tomorrow and cuddle with me" I smiled at him.
"Not that easy. But you'll have me all to yourself in three days" He kissed the top of my head lightly.
"Mmm" I groaned "I can't wait" I smiled at the ceiling.
•••••
"Did you have a nice night?" he asked leading me to the car.
"Any night with you is nice" I smiled. That was a lie. The restaurant was too fancy and the waiter was rude. Well at least it seemed like it to me to Pete I guess that was normal behavior. But I could lie. I barely ate either because I didn't know what I had ordered. It looked like fish.
"Aw" he said softly "You're amazing. I have no idea how I got so damn lucky"
"Keep talking like that you might get a different kind of lucky" I said smirking. His eyebrows raised.
"Alright beautiful you're on" he said. He pressed me up against the car and kissed me forcefully. I slid my arms around his neck. "Let's go home" he said panting. He winked at me. I excitedly got into the car.
•••••
[You guys got smut in the last chapter you'll get more smut soon ;) ]
"I think my favorite part about sex is how you hold me after it" I mumbled on his chest.
"I hold you like this all the time" he giggled. He ran his fingers lazily through my hair.
"Yeah but it's different after sex" He laughed lightly.
"How's it different?" he asked. I shrugged smiling.
"You're happier and calmer. Not as serious and tense as you usually are and it just feels nicer. And I feel like I'm floating above the clouds" I drew little circles on his stomach with my finger.
"Don't we all when we're in love?" He mumbled.
"I guess so" I replied. It'd been a while since we used the play room. But he still made me call him sir. I missed the play room. Maybe next time we can use it.
"Your mom told me you wrote me a song. Sing it for me" he said. Thanks mom. I nervously gulped and shut my eyes. I took a shaky breath.
"I'm here to collect your hearts
It's the only reason that I sing
I don't believe a word you say but I can't stop listening
This is the story of how they met
His picture was on the back of a pack of cigarettes
When he touched him he turned ruby red
A story that they'll never forget
Never forget
And all the boys are smoking menthols
Girls are getting back rubs
I will drift to you if you make yourself shake fast enough
My old aches become new again
My old friends become exes again
Whoa, where did the party go?
We're ending it on the phone
I'm not gonna go home alone
Whoa, where did the party go?
I know I expect too much
And not enough all at once
You know I only wanted fun then you got me all fucked up on love
Oh I hoped for your name on the Ouija Board
And your naked magic, oh dear Lord
You and me are the difference between real love and the love on TV, love on TV"
I stopped. My heart thudded in my chest. I opened my eyes again and took a deep breath.
"Come here" he whispered. I sat up and turned to face him. Tears fell down his cheeks. He kissed me. His hands slid into mine as he pulled back "I love you. So much"
"I love you too. I can't wait to be your husband at the alter"
"Me either" he kissed me again.
