His Secret

Fixing Things

I lean on the door. I don’t know what to do. I get up and walk away. When I get to Hayley’s room her and Adam are fast asleep. Where do I sleep now? I can’ t sleep on the couch. I walk back to our room. I have to go back. I open the door and see Dustin sitting there crying. He looks so innocent and helpless. I can’t just leave him like this. He looks up at me surprised. “Dustin I just can’t do this anymore. You hurt me and I wish I could stay with you. We love each other. I heard you yell at Taylor and it broke my heart to pieces knowing that I wasn’t with you anymore. Dustin I do love you. I just hate what you do.”

“I am sorry Allie I could say it a million times. I just don’t want Taylor and her baby to be the end of us. This is our last night here and I wanted it to be special. It can’t be special if you hate me.” I walk over and sit next to him. “What exactly did you have planned for tonight?” I smirk and he starts laughing. “I had a lot of fun stuff planned. We were going to have a special dinner. Then we were going to do this.” He leans over and kisses me. “We were going to do a lot of that.” He says smiling.

“Is it too late?” He smiles and starts laughing. “Not at all. I promise I won’t ever kiss Taylor again. I promise you. I know you shouldn’t believe me but I really do love you and only you. Anything Taylor and I had is done and I just want to be with you forever. I love you Allie. I love you so much, ok?” I sit back and think. How do I know I can trust him now?

“You need to earn back my trust, but I do still want to be with you. I just can’t stop thinking about how I felt when I was in tears screaming your name and you ignored me. You continued to kiss her despite my pain. You ignored me when I said I didn’t want you to talk to her alone. How can I trust you? How can I trust you won’t hurt me again? Dustin it really killed me, and I don’t know anymore.”

“Allie if I could take all that back I would because when you said we are over it was like my life flashed before my eyes. It was like I was losing everything. If I lose you Allie I don’t know how I will breathe again because every time I’m with you, you take my breath away. If you leave me I will be losing the one thing that means everything to me.” I look at him and search his eyes and all I see is honesty and love. “Dustin I hate your guts. I hate you so much but I love you.” He laughs and leans in.

“Do I  have permission to kiss you?” He asks and I feel his cool breath on my lips. “Permission granted.” He laughs . I love when he laughs. He leans in and our lips touch. I feel those fireworks I feel and know I can’t just leave him. I pull away. I giggle. He smiles and pushes the hair out of my eyes. “You’re perfect. You are just too cute.” I can’t take his cuteness. “Dustin you’re turning 17 this week I just remembered, the 29th right?” He blushes and turns away. “I would prefer we just ignored my birthday. I hate all the drama and attention. We can hang out for my birthday just you and me making out.” He smirks. “As wonderful as that sounds we are having a party. We are inviting the whole school. It’s going to be crazy.” He whines and shakes his head. “Allie we are not doing that.”

“Yes we are Dustin you have no say in this. I am so excited I can’t wait. I am throwing you the best 17th birthday party ever.” I am so excited. This party is going to be crazy! I get up and start dancing around. “I’m so happy you’re letting me plan your party. You are the best boyfriend in the world.” He pulls me to sit on his lap. “Allie there isn’t going to be a party. You are not planning my party. Do you understand?” I laugh. “No I don’t actually and I never will.” I stick my tongue out and get off of him. “You are so annoying.” He pulls my hand and crashes his lips on mine. I pull away. “No party no kissing.” I smirk.

That morning I wake up tangled with Dustin. I won we are having the party. Then I remember we are leaving Hawaii today. “Dustin wake up we need to clean we are leaving Hawaii today. I don’t want to leave. I want to stay here forever just us together forever.” He slips his hand in mine.  “I am going to go change into some airplane clothes and shower. I will be right back.” I tell him as I get up and grab the outfit I took out last night.