Please save me (Newtmas kitten au)

Chapter 8

"Newt, how many heats have you gone through with those men?" Thomas asked, afraid of what the answer would be.
"T-the heats s-started when I was 12, I-I'm 17 n-now. T-they bought me when I w-was 11" Newt whispered between sobs.
"And when did they start to abuse you?" Thomas whispered.
"They s-started hitting me th-the day they g-got m-me. They st-started raping m-me when I w-was 12, a-as soon a-as they fo-found out what m-my heats were, t-they started t-to do it. E-even w-when I wasn't in h-heat they w-would do i-it" the kitten boy whispered. It was hard for they boy to confess, but it was something he knew he needed to say.

Thomas on the other hand was ready to kill someone.

"And when was the last time they raped you?" Thomas whispered.
"About 10 m-minutes before y-you found m-me" Newt whispered, tears still falling rapidly from the smaller boys eyes.

"No wonder your so sore" Thomas whispered and Newt looked down, his breathing was uneven as he tried to keep himself together.

"I know it seems like I'm asking a lot of questions, but why do you stutter?" Thomas continued, he wanted to know as much as he could.
"I s-stutter when I'm nerv-nervous or sad or s-scared" the smaller boy whispered back.

It was silent for a few moments before Newt broke the silence.

"T-Tommy, I don't w-want to go th-through heat. It h-hurts so m-much and I d-don't sleep properly a-and it's r-really uncomfortable" Newt cried, rubbing his eyes. Thomas took in a deep breath.
"It's ok Newt, I'll look after you ok? Whatever you need during your heat I will do my best to help and make you feel more comfortable"
"B-but I'm always v-vomiting or... Doing s-stuff, it j-just hurts s-so much" tears fell from his eyes and Thomas softly whipped them away with his thumb. Newt flinched at the sudden contact but soon relaxed.

Thomas looked deeply into the crying boys brown eyes. Thomas wanted nothing more but to kiss the boy. To just hold him.

"Newt, this is going to sound crazy, but can I kiss you?" Thomas asked and the smaller boys breath hitched. His ears pressed down against his head and his tail wrapped itself around his waist. He started to tremble and fresh tears filled his eyes.

"W-what?" Newt whispered, looking up at Thomas hesitantly. He'd only known Thomas for a little while, but he knew he could trust him. But what if he hurts him? No, Thomas wouldn't do that, would he?
Newt was fighting a war inside his mind. His body was still trembling but Thomas just patiently waited for an answer. If Newt wasn't ready, then that was ok.

"I um, T-Tommy I-" Newt stuttered but Thomas held one of the boys trembling hands softly.
"I won't hurt you, I promise. And whenever you want to stop you can pull away" Thomas assured the boy who was still terrified.

Newt looked into Thomas's dark eyes, they were kind and soft, opposite to the men who had him before. Newt didn't know what he wanted. He couldn't deny that a small part of him wanted to be kissed, to be loved. But the overpowering fear of being abused again was enough to make Newt shake his head hesitantly.

"T-Tommy, I'm s-sorry, I ca-can't" the smaller boy whimpered. Thomas felt a little bit hurt, but he completely understood. Newt wasn't ready and that was ok.
"No, I should be the one to say sorry. You've just opened up to me, telling me all about your terrible past and here I am asking to kiss you. I should never have put you in that position, I'm sorry Newt" Thomas said, looking deep into Newts dark, broken eyes. Newt looked down but Thomas lifted his chin softly.
"It's o-ok" Newt stuttered and Thomas let out a sad sigh.

"Can I at least tell you something?" Thomas asked, Newt nodded his head.
"You are really beautiful" Thomas whispered causing Newt to look directly at him. Newt had never been complemented before, he didn't know what to do. He looked into Thomas's eyes, looking for something, anything that would show that it was some sort of joke, that he was just saying it to make him feel better but he found nothing. Only genuine compassion and kindness.

A small blush spread across the kitten boys cheeks, something that had never happened to him before and Thomas couldn't hide the small smirk that appeared on his lips.

"U-Um, thank y-you?" Newt stuttered back, unsure of how to respond.
"You are very welcome" Thomas whispered, holding both of Newts trembling hands in his own.

After a few seconds of silence, Thomas spoke.

"So, what do you want to do now? We can watch another movie if you want or we could play a game or something" Thomas asked but Newt just stared back at him blankly.

"Ok, how about we do a puzzle?" Thomas suggested and Newt nodded. Supprisingly, this was something that Newt knew how to do, only because he's seen pictures and figured it out himself.

Thomas got up and collected a box containing the puzzle pieces and sat on the floor. Newt slowly got himself onto the floor too, after a lot of groans and whimpers.

Thomas poured the pieces onto the floor, then placed the picture of the finished product on the floor so they knew what they were making.
"What is t-that?" Newt asked, pointing to the picture Thomas had placed down.
"It's what were gonna make using the puzzle prices. It's a giant maze" Thomas responded and Newt nodded in response.

The two boys continued to place the prices together. Thomas mostly just admiring the kitten boy and watching as he attempted to put some of the puzzle together. Thomas couldn't ignore the feeling in his stomach, the strong feeling of absolute adoration and care for the other boy. Thomas knew he was gay, but this was just the icing on the cake.

Newt on the other hand didn't know what love was. He'd never been shown how to love, let alone be in love. That hurt him. He knew that there was a thing called love, but he knew deep down that he would never have the chance to experience the feeling of love.