I'm Not Okay!

This is going to hurt

What was he doing here? He was going to kill me! I stared at my hand covered in blood and looked back at him. He walked towards me and I took a step back and he stopped.

"Cassie?" He asked concerned, why? I was so confused. He should be in prison right now! He got locked up and he's standing there right in front of my eyes.

"G...Get away from me" My voice was shaky but I didn't care, I didn't want him near me. He came closer to me and I screamed at the top of my lungs and Ray came running in. I curled up near the toilet and cried. Ray grabbed me and hugged me.

"Gerard go" He ordered, I didn't want Gerard to go! Where was he? I needed him now whilst my biggest fear was standing there. I didn't understand, why didn't he hit me like he did? Maybe because people was standing near him but that never stopped him before. I saw Frank grab his arm and pull him away. I squeezed my eyes closed and cried onto Ray's shoulder.

"Why is he here?" I asked, I was shaking violently and my voice was shaky.

"He's your dad Cassie" Ray whispered

"But he got locked up" Ray pulled away and looked at me confused, he looked at my hand and stood up walking to the cabinet grabbing a few bandages and medicine. He walked back over and sat next to me. I held my hand out.

"This is going to hurt" He whispered and poured some of the medicine onto it, It stung at first but then I breathed through the pain. He put the bandage over it and smiled. "Let's get you out of here" He said and stood up again but I couldn't move. He scooped me up in his arms and walked out of the room, I saw my dad sitting next to Bandit reading the newspaper. He looked at me crying and he wanted to say something but I couldn't look at him. I buried my face into Ray's shoulder and he continued walking. He took me into a small room and placed me on the sofa.

"Thank you" I whispered curling up in a ball. I didn't want to move. He smiled at me and sat next to me, I looked up at him.

"What did you see?" He asked curious

"My dad looking pissed" I replied swallowing hard.

"Your real dad? Or Gerard" He asked raising an eyebrow

"My real dad" I whispered and my eyes became blurry. He nodded and patted my knee which was brought up to my chin.

"I'll go get you a drink of water, and heck I'll even throw in a tub of ice-cream!" He said smiling. He stood up and walked out of the room leaving the door open. I could hear the others in the other room. It was quiet in the room I was in and I liked it like that.

"Ray! How is she!?" I heard Gerard ask. I wish he could come and see me. He'd make everything better.

"She think's you're her real dad. She imagined you as him. She's shaken up" Ray replied and I frowned a little. No I didn't.

"Oh f.. Crap" I heard little footsteps becoming louder and louder until a little girl stood in the doorway. Bandit smiled at me and walked over to sit next to me.

"Cassie!" She called out and I put my knee's down, she hugged me and I hugged her back. I needed a hug.

"Bee!" I replied sniffing

"Don't cry" She told me and I smiled slightly.

"I'll try not to" I pulled away and she started humming the song Gerard made for me, what were those lyrics?

"Wipe your eyes" Bandit sang and I smiled wiping my eyes, She was just like Gerard, she was talented at the age of 6 and she could even comfort you. I hope I get to see Gerard or Mikey soon, I really need there support.