I'm Not Okay!

Depression

"Cassie what did you see?" Mikey asked me as the Doctor left. I just swallowed hard and looked up at everyone, even Bandit stopped playing with her toys and she looked at me.

"You blamed me for everything" I whispered and Gerard shook his head. He held my hand tight and stopped crying.

"It isn't your fault! Nothing's your fault!" He assured me

"I know it's my fault and I'm sorry, just don't make out it isn't" I told them and they all shook there heads, I saw Frank sigh.

"You really need to stop saying sorry" He smiled.

"I want to go home" I told them and Ray shook his head.

"You can't until tomorrow, It's late so sleep" He told me, I shook my head and tried to get up but I couldn't move.

"Why can't I move" I asked confused

"The doctor injected you with some weird medicine which makes it so you can't move. All you can do which is fun is sleep!" Mikey smiled and I shot him a glare.

"That's not fun"

"Neither is staying awake and not being able to move" He was right, I closed my eyes and tried to get to sleep but I kept hearing snorting noises coming from Frank, I opened my eyes and stared at him, He apologised.

"What are you laughing at?" I asked

"Just thinking, don't be shocked if you wake up with crayons all over your face" He smirked and pointed to Bandit who was smiling innocently with a crayon in her hand. I gulped and Mikey laughed, Gerard would've but he looked too worried.

"I won't let her" Gerard whispered and I closed my eyes again but this time Frank didn't snort like a pig and I fell into a dark sleep.

When I woke up the next morning everyone was asleep with there heads on my bed, I chuckled slightly and rubbed my head, I could move again! The doctor came in laughing at the band and focused her attention onto me.

"You're free to leave whenever you are ready" She smiled and before she went she handed me a leaflet "Keep that in mind" She half smiled and walked off. I looked at it and in bold letters it said "DEPRESSION" I gulped and sat up making all of them shoot up.

"What?" Frank asked opening his eyes and looking around, I laughed at him and focused my attention on a very sleepy looking Gerard.

"The doctor said I could leave whenever I'm ready... Whenever you're ready" I said pointing to his hair, He flattened it and stood up walking off. He probably didn't believe me and asked the doctor himself. He walked back in and nodded to the band, they all stood up and stared at me.

I looked at my arms and the needles were removed... Probably removed by the doctor whilst I was asleep. I stood up and saw I was still in my clothes. Mikey held my waist so I didn't fall over and we walked out of the hospital and Into the car. I jumped in the back and Ray sat to the right of me with Bee on his lap and Mikey sat to the left of me. Frank was driving and Gerard was in the passengers seat. Mikey handed me a leaflet.. The depression leaflet.

"You need help" He whispered.

"I have you guys, I don't need some crappy therapist to act like they actually know and give a S... About my life" I stopped myself swearing because of Bandit, I turned to look at her and she was smiling sweetly at me.

"My shield worked!" She told me

"Yup, I'm still alive" I laughed and she high five'd me. Keep smiling Cassie... When we get home I can be alone and end it all.