Hopeless Love In The Music Industry (Jamal Lyon Love Story)

A Little Too Much

I head down to Empire to let Cookie hear my song.

I have so many things on my mind right now.

(Flashback)

"Why would he think that?" i ask curious about the answer.

He was silent for a moment.

He looked at me.

"Cause i was....."

My breath caught in my throat.

I look away from Jamal.

"So what are you saying?...." i ask.

"I'm saying that....
I don't know how, or why, but i can't get you out of my head.
I think about you more than i thought about Michael. I have these very confusing, and very forbidden thoughts about you that i feel really guilty for and they drive me crazy!" he says raising his voice frustrated.

"It's just........ i think i may have feelings towards you?" he says in a questioning way.

I think he was questioning himself. Like he was asking himself for an answer.

"What kind of feelings?...." i ask softly dreading the answer.

"I'm not sure....
but i know that those feelings are  making me want to be with you............."

...........what?........

I let it sink in for a moment before i decide that i needed to go.

"I can't hear this right now....
I have to go...
I'm sorry..." i say as i rush out of my house.

(End Of Flashback)

I can't believe that Jamal said that he had feelings for me.

I had to get out of there asap.

The reason why I'm so troubled by what Jamal said is because......
i know that i have feelings for Jamal also.

It makes me feel so guilty because i'm with Mikey.

I love Mikey so much.
And Lord knows i do not want to do anything to hurt him.

But my feelings for Jamal do not seem to be going anywhere.....

I just need some time by myself to think things through. Maybe after i make Cookie hear this song, i could go somewhere to be alone.

Hopefully...

When i reach by Empire, i see them putting up cardboard cut outs of Jamal and Hakeem for their big performance at Leviticus.

I call Cookie to see where she was.

"I'm busy right now with Elle." she says.

"Alright. Well when you're done can you hear my song. It's practically done but i need your feedback."

"Alright baby."

"Ok. Thanks."

I hang up the phone and proceed inside the building. I then walk to the elevator.
When i get there, i see Becky and Malcolm the new security guard that Luscious hired.

I know that Cookie has a thing for Malcolm.
It's obvious.

"Hey Becky. Hey Malcolm." i say to them.

"Hey Jade." Becky says.

"Good morning Ms. Brooks." Malcolm says.

Always with the formal greetings....