My Brother's Best Friend's Friend (ON HOLD)

Chapter 21

The next day I go shopping alone, looking for a prom dress. Not many stand out to me and I find myself wishing Ella was here. I'm not easy to shop for. I find something I like but once I try it on I hate it. Ella has always been there to force me to buy it and in the end I love it. I don't know why it's always been that difficult, it just has and might stay that way. Most of all, I hate shopping even more when it isn't for me. It bothers and frustrates me when I have to wait for someone to try the same thing on for almost a half hour, especially when they just pucker their lips and stay in the same spot for like ten minutes.

"I give up," I mumble under my breath as I stop looking through racks of hideous dresses.

I've been here for almost an hour and a half, the longest I have ever stayed at the mall unless I am with Ella. Dammit, I really need to stop wishing she could help me.

As if God answered my prayers, Ella walks in with Zayn and my heart pounds. 'Please don't let Harry be here. Please don't let Harry be here.' I chant in my head. For the first time, he isn't. Disappointment fills my heart and I frown. If I don't want him here, why am I acting this way?

"Alex?" I hear Zayn question.

Shit.

"Oh.. Ummm... Hey." I awkwardly reply.

"Lets get out of here," Ella tugs at his hand but he doesn't move.

"Is something going on here?" Zayn asks and Ella and I look at each other.

"No," I lie.

"Right," Zayn lifts his brow up sarcastically.

"I'll see you around Zayn," I say as I past by him but his arm stops me.

"I'm serious, what's going on?"

I sigh. "We got into a fight."

"Why the hell did you tell him?" Ella yells and I laugh.

"Doesn't feel good once people know your personal business, right?" I tell her and her eyes widen with anger.

"What are you talking about?" Zayn asks.

"Your girlfriend here has the fucking nerve to tell my ex to take me out to prom when she knows how I feel about Harry. She knows I don't have feelings for Chase!"

"You sure do act like it!"

"By hanging out when YOU brought him?" I laugh. "I was only being polite, something you can't do."

"It's not my fault Harry doesn't want to go with you." Ella yells and tears blur my vision.

"Maybe he doesn't," I choke up. "But I want to go with him. That's the only person I have wanted to go with and nothing will change that. Maybe he doesn't have feelings for me anymore either but you know what? I still do! I still do and nothing can stop me, not even my own father."

Zayn's jaw drops and I know I shouldn't have said anything. Then again, I don't care. He can tell Harry the way I feel for him because I don't want it to be a secret. All I want is for him to be mine and no one else's.

"Ella, I know I screwed up and I'm sorry. But I don't want to keep it a secret. I like Harry, but I think he's changed his mind about me. I never meant to hurt him. I want him to be mine even if he pisses me off. To be honest everything about him crazy. I just... I lied to him. I told him that I didn't have feelings but I was just afraid to be hurt. I don't want to get hurt anymore. Fucked up, I know." I nervously chuckle but Ella gives me a small smile.

"Ella, you're my best friend and always will be. Please just don't let something like this get in the way of that." I say.

Ella pulls me into a hug and I feel the worry built up on my shoulders lighten. One more apology left.