Skinny love // J.P.

Chapter 4

Leah's POV

You know, they say if seeing him and his contact makes you feel sparks in your stomach it's meant to be. I feel against that. I feel that if you feel at home with them, then one day they can become your home. I feel that if you feel safe with him, they'll protect you till the end. If you feel sparks, it's just young love that excites you. Sometimes, maybe sparks are good but mainly it's not. You should feel security with them, that's how you know

I thought this as I lay in my bed, with my headphones plugged in, staring at the white ceiling.

Joel and I, have to be meant for each other. He's the one boy I've met where I feel at home. All I've ever felt are tiny sparks with my past boyfriend. But, Joel is different. He's not like my past boyfriend. Who was fuckboy enough to send nudes to my Ex best friend. The reason she's me ex best friend is because she sent back.

The only reason he asked for nudes from them, is because I said no to sending nudes. I'm not that girl, I don't do nudes. He didn't understand that. I'm way to insecure and shy for that. Let's just say I was stupid enough to date him 2 days after I broke up with him for sending those nudes.

I thought he was the one for me. Apparently not.

Come on skinny love, just last year.
Pour a little salt, you were never here.

I continued thinking about random things and the song I was listening to. Skinny love is such a weird concept.

Mid-song, my FaceTime ring tone goes off. I look at the contact name and see its Joel. I smile before answering.
(L-Leah, J-Joel)

"Hi stranger!" L

"Hey weirdo, what's up?"j

"Just listening to music, thinking about life. Why did you call me?"L

"I got bored, plus I like talking to you. We need to catch up"j

"True, what was it like up in Oregon?" L

"Fun, I was one of the popular guys in my school. Don't mean to brag but all the girls wanted me" j he added a little smirk at the end and I melted.

"Someone's a little cocky. And you should know, every guy here is dying to be my next boyfriend so ha" L I bragged and laughed as he joined. He has a nice smile. It looked a little pixely through FaceTime though.

"Whatever mrs popular. 'Next' boyfriend? Did you have another one?" J

"Ugh, yeah. Long story. He was a fuckboy" L

"Oh, gotcha. I dated a slut so we're on evil grounds."j

"I think the term is equal grounds idiot" L

"Oh, oops"j

"So tell me, from what I remember as a child. Is your favorite color still green?"L

"Of course. And yours..blue?"j

"Ding ding ding! Isn't your birthday coming up? February 28nd!" L

"Someone stalked me" j he laughed

"No I just have a good memory". L