Leah's POV
All the boys went to their houses again to get some clothes to spend the night. As for the girls, they have a lot of clothes at my house from always sleeping over here. They even have their own little drawer of clothes. From bikinis to dresses. Everyone prefers my house as we can be as loud as we want, usually because there isn't an adult watching us.
"Okay, since they left we can go change into our pjs upstairs." I said and picked up rascal as they all followed me upstairs.
We all changed into pjs and I was wearing a leggings style red and black plaid pants that looked nice with a regular black tank top with a little thicker straps.
CAUSE EVERY SCHOOL KNOWS HOW MUCH OF A FUCKING TURN ON SHOULDERS ARE.
I went downstairs to be greeted with the girls in their pjs drinking their hot chocolate.
"Hiya" I smiled walking down the stairs with rascal.
"Yo...the guys said they're on their way" Kyla read off her phone.
"AWW WITTLE WASCAL IS SO CUTE" Jackie said ruffling the top of rascals head and I just rolled my eyes and laughed.
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"Can we sleep now, I'm tired" I yawned. I looked at the time to see it was 3am. Not bad.
"Yeah, night guys" Joel said walking into my room.
"Night. I'll see you guys tomorrow. I'm making pancakes" I cheered and walked up the stairs.
I soon heard everyone else say goodnight then footsteps going up the stairs as well.
I entered my room to see Joel laying on the floor shirtless. God damn.
"You don't have to sleep on the floor you know" I chuckled.
"Where else would I sleep?" Is this boy dumb
"You can sleep in my bed with me, I don't mind" I shrug.
"Oh okay" he said with a little smile before getting up and getting in my bed.
"I'll be back in gonna take off my makeup and brush my teeth. Don't judge how I look without makeup okay?" I laughed a little, he laughed as well and assured me he wouldn't.
I came back into the room to see Joel somewhat asleep. I crawled into the covers and tried to sleep. I wasn't facing Joel as that would be awkward.
I heard him yawn and stretch his arms before turning over to me and wrapping his arm around my waist and his face nuzzled into my neck slighting.
I smiled to myself before scooting closer to him a bit.
I soon fell asleep peacefully, feeling extremely safe in Joel's arms.
••••*skip to the day of the party because why not right*••••
The girls and I were getting ready in my moms bathroom as it is HUGE. That's what she said. I'm sorry I'll jump out of a window now.
"Okay, who wants to curl the back of my hair?" I ask to the 2 girls standing next to me getting ready.
"I'm basically done with my hair so I'll do it" Jackie volunteers and starts curling my hair.
After that was done I did a soft smokey eye with winged eyeliner and mascara. I added a maroon red matte lip and did regular face makeup.
"Eyebrows on fleek damn" Kyla complimented me and I laughed.
"Yours are quite fleeky too" Kyla laughed at my use of words and continued to do her hair.
I changed into my outfit. <shown above>
And was finally ready, I went downstairs to see all the boys ready.
Joel was wearing a nice outfit as well <shocker it's shown above>
"You look gorgeous" Joel smiled at me and I blushed.
"You look handsome as well" I smiled back and we left for the party.
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The party was amazing, we've been here for about an hour and it's so amazing. Loud music, good drinks, cool people, cool lights, and Joel.
Right now I was just dancing with Jackie and Kyla but a second ago I was with Joel.
"You seem to really like Joel" Kyla yells while we're dancing.
"Maybe. Just to shy to admit it I guess" I yelled back over the music. Jackie and Kyla looked at each other wearily and like something was up.
"What's wrong?" I yelled back confused.
"Hey I don't mean to be rude and burst your bubble but, look at Joel" Jackie whisper-yelled into my ear.
I turned my head looking for Joel until I see him with another girl dancing all over each other. My heart shattered.
All of a sudden I see them smash their faces together roughly. A single tear slips out of the corner of my eye. I quickly wipe it away, it's nothing. I refuse to cry in public in front of people. I don't want to seem like an attention whore. (A/N: Not saying I think everyone who cries in public is btw because crying is normal but personally I always feel judged when I cry in front of anyone from my brother always judging me for it)
He obviously doesn't like me, maybe he should go with that girl. She's pretty. Nice body. She's perfect for him. I see her whisper into his ear then take him out of the dance floor and upstairs into a private room.
"I'm sorry leah, please just ignore him and enjoy the party" Kyla puts her hand on my shoulder and I nod.
I put on a fake smile and look up.
"Whatever, not like we would've actually dated right" I smiled.
The party continued on for what seemed like forever until i decided on going home.
"Hey guys I'm gonna go home. You guys can go home with the boys." I smile weakly and they nod, understanding I need time to myself.
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I lay in bed wondering where I went wrong. What I need to change about myself.
Maybe I was to shy, he wanted to go faster but I wasn't comfortable so he moved on. I was too late. I didn't do enough.
You know what, no. If he actually liked me truly he would've waited for me. I wouldn't have to change a damn thing about myself. I'm fucking flawless as it is and if I need to change for a guy he's not fucking worth it. I need to find a man who is happy with me not being slutty to them and just taking it slowly.
I reassure myself with that little speech and fall asleep. Without warm arms around my waist, just me, myself, and rascal.
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-XoLeah
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RomantizmCome on skinny love, just last the year Leah Taylor was an average girl with all she could ask for. She has amazing friends, a known personality in her school, and great looks. She was good at everything she tried, except having confidence. She was...
