cross my heart, hope to die ; halsanie (second book in the pinky promise series)

irl (end)

june 18th, 4:06pm

the funeral was today. ashley didn't want to go, though she had to. what would not going to her girlfriend's funeral look like to other's? they wouldn't understand. they wouldn't understand why ashley dreaded this day. i mean, it's a funeral, everyone's supposed to dread it, right? ashley dreaded it for more than just the 'it's a funeral' reason. the reason ashley dreaded this was because the funeral was open-casket. she didn't want to see melanie's lifeless face. the lips she so badly wanted to kiss, the arms she so badly wanted wrapped around her, she hair she wanted to run her fingertips through, the hands she wanted to hold.

ashley couldn't bare to see that. but she had to. she had no choice. everyone who loved melanie would be mad at her.

so she went.

and she deeply regretted it.

the second she saw melanie's lifeless body, she lost it. she cried hysterically. she screamed. she fell to her knees crying. she lost control.

she had to leave early due to her hysterical emotions. she didn't mind, though. she didn't want to look at melanie's lifeless form any longer.

she went through the pictures of melanie on her phone. to sum that up, her phone ended up on the floor with a shattered screen.

she tore apart the pictures that weren't on her phone. she broke the picture frames holding pictures of melanie.

after all that, she just sat on the floor, wearing melanie's favorite shirt. she had music playing, though she barely listened to it. her thoughts seemed louder than the music.

"i cross my heart, hope to die that i won't do any harm to myself. you wouldn't have wanted that, would you? i'll continue my life, as hard as it may be. i won't forget you, though. how could i forget you?"