My Fault

chapter 4

I wake Up and I see Luke looking at me and holding me, he looks so scared right now.

"w-what?" I say panting. why the hell am I out of breathe?

"you where screaming in your sleep so I picked you up and woke you up. I didn't know what else to do. you where crying and I was so worried about you" he says and his grip on me gets tighter.

"I'm sorry I scared you. I was having a bad dream about Noah" I could feel tears going down my cheek. I can't believe I'm crying infront of Luke. "Luke I'm hungry, can we go downstairs and make some food and then can we watch a movie?"

"ye-yeah, come on. I'll carry you downstairs"

"you don't need to carry me Luke, plus I'm too heavy" I say and I tried to get up but I'm to weak.

"you are not to heavy so stop saying that and I want to carry you. and I have a secret for you" he says.

"what?"

He puts his lips to my ear and says "you look really pretty when you are sleeping" and picks me up and runs down the stairs.

"so what do you want to eat?" Luke says and sets me on the counter.

"what bet was Noah talking about?" I say and I don't look at him. I just keep my head down.

"I don't think you want to know"

"tell me"

"The bet was made last year on the first day, a lot of the guys are in it. The bet is to see who can take your virginity. I was in on it and thats why I kept trying to get with you but I didn't do it for the money in the bet. I was only in the bet because I liked you and I could flirt with you and stuff without the other guys thinking I was fucked up or something for liking you. But at the end of the year and over the summer I realized that it was wrong, that is was fucked up, so I backed out. I realized that I didn't care what they thought of me for liking you" he says and takes a deep breath and waits for me to answer.

i don't even have a answer. I can feel tears running down my face and they won't stop. 

"why would you do that?" I say and I wipe my tears away.

"because I really liked you but all I cared about was my reputation and I'm sorry. I backed out of the bet because I like you more then my fucking reputation Blair. You are beautiful and you don't deserve that"

and then he kisses me. its a soft kiss. like I could brake or something. After a few minutes I pull away and look at him.

"I-I'm sorry Blair" he says and laughs a little and rubs the back of his neck. I pull him in for a quick kiss and I jump off the counter.

"Make me fries Luke" I say and I get frozen fries out of the freezer.

"I like when you tell me what to do" and he winks at me.

"Luke! what the hell! you're gross" I say and laugh. Then I throw the damn fries at him. Then I laughed again and so did he. 

"you realized that its 3:23 in the morning and I'm making you fries?" he says and starts to make the fries.

"can we watch a movie too?"

"of course" he says and throws a frozen fry at me.

"you asshole!" I say and then I throw it back.

When the fries are done he brings them into the living room and we put in a horror movie. I don't know what it was called because I let Luke pick out the movie. we ate all the fires and Luke did a really good job with them. During the movie I kept jumping so Luke decided to be a fucking flirt and put his arm around my waist and put his hand under my shirt and was making random shades with his fingers. It was kinda nice, I didn't jump as as much for the rest of the movie so that was good. when the movie was over we turned on spongebob on T.V. and we started to doze off.

"i know you're only doing this because you feel bad Luke, so you can go home if you want"

"Blair have I not made it clear that I like you a lot? I have Liked you since you had to tutor me last year. I don't care if you don't feel the same way. I'm still going to like you"

"I don't know how I feel" I really didn't know how i felt. I think i liked Luke but I don't know.

"thats fine, just tell me when you figure it out ok blair?" 

"ok Luke"

"goodnight Blair"

"night Luke"