My Fault

chapter 9

I hear the knock again and I am still frozen in my place.

"Blair I can here you breathing, open the d-door" Luke says and his voice cracks when he says door. I'm kinda glad that its Luke and that its not michael or even Noah. 

I put my hand on the door knob still not wanting to open it. 

I have been ignoring Luke an Michael for a week now and I have been doing fine but when i see them and they look at me I always feel tears in my eyes. I hate not talking to them, it hurts a lot and I really miss them but after what I heard i don't know if I can talk to them. i can't even look at them without wanting to burst into tears. I don't even understand why I'm going to let Luke in my house.

Oh right. I have been standing here for almost ten minutes with my hand on the door knob and I can hear luke knocking on the door pulling my back to life.

"blair please open the door. I need to talk to you. i don't know what to say or how to explain myself my I need to talk to you. I need you to talk to me. You don't understand how hard this week has been with you not talking to me and Michael" and I hear him put his forehead on the door. I can also feel tears going down my face.

damn it.

I finally open the door and he almost fall because he was leaning on the door. I feel more tears go down my eyes.

he literally tackles me and we almost fall because he hugs me. 

I just stand there. I was in shock.

"B-blair please hug me back" he says and I think he is crying but i don't know for sure. I hug him back and he lets go and we stand there for a few minutes both lost in thought.

"ok Blair I need you to listen and you can't say or yell at me or tell me to get out ok? I just need you to listen'' he says and I nod and we both sit on the floor. I don't know why we didn't sit on the couch but whatever I guess.

"You know that Noah would do anything for that money and I was talking to Michael one day and i told him that I told him how I felt about you and then we were talking about how we didn't want you to get hurt or for someone to do that to you so we made a plan so that dick head Noah wouldnt touch you" he says and I see his hands go into a fish and i put my hands on his to calm him down. " I know that this is so horrorible but i want you to understand that i did this for you. We only did this for you so don't be mad at us. We made this plan that I would kinda take your virginity, but we also planned that I wouldn't realy because it sounds really bad, we were jut going to make it seem like that"he says out of breath from talking so fast. I can't help but to burst out laughing, I know thats what the plan they made was bad but they did it so I didn't get raped or something so.

"well come on Blair it was going to happen anyway" Luke says and he winks at me.

"and Me and michael were gonna split the money and do something with it but I cant tell you yet so" he says and he scoots closer to me.

"so are you going to keep ignoring us? because Michael misses you so much its not even funny. i don't think i have ever seen a guy cry so much but i cried with him" luke says and he rubs the back of his neck.

"you were crying over me?" i say and I feel more tears going down my face.

" well duh. I may be hardcore but hardcore people still cry" 

"you are not hardcore" I laugh. I really missed them and I am glad I talked to luke about this. yes, i am pissed that they planned to take my virginity or act like they did and shit but they only did it because they didn't want me to get hurt and it is kinda they only thing they can do.

"I really am sorry Blair" Luke says and he doesn't look at me and he sounds like he is going to cry again.

"no Luke i'm sorry, i didn't trust you or give you a chance to explain and I sorry" i say and I smile but I have more tears going down my eyes.

"its ok love" Luke says and my heart starts pounding and I can feel that I am blushing.

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sorry for the short chapter again but i needed to end it here for next chapter

love chu <3