My Fault

chapter 10

I woke up on sunday morning at 4:27 because all I did Saturday was sleep, so I don't think I can sleep anymore. So I get up and I walk downstairs to see Luke with 2 bowls of icecream.

"you kept moving around in the bed and I new you were awake and that you were not gonna go back to sleep so I came down here and got us some icecream because I couldn't sleep either" Luke says with a smile and hands me one of the bowls.

"awe thanks for getting me Icecream even though it is like 4 in the morning" I say and he both laugh and walk to the couch and watch whatever is on T.V. at this time. Luke has been here since he talked to me friday. Yesterday we went to Michael's and we talked everything over with Michael so we are all good now. But Friday after me and luke talked he kissed me again and I kissed him back but I still don't know how I feel about him. I don't like it and its confusing. also that night we stayed up all night and talked and laughed and it felt really nice but also weird. We didn't talk about a lot of serious things because i think we we're both trying to get our minds off of everything. so then when we got home from Michaels. we slept and now we just woke up and now we are eating icecream. Its funny how you can go from hating someone to having them stay at your house all weekend in a short amount of time. I feel like things are moving really fast and I don't know how I feel about it. I kinda want to slow things down with us. like I know Lukes likes me. He has made that pretty fucking clear. but what is not clear, is how I feel about Luke. I feel so lucky to have him and Michael as my friends. But Michael does mean more to me. Michael was there when I was going through a lot of things, and one of those things was when Luke was a asshole buts thats behind us now and I'm moving on from everything that happened in my past.

"Blair are you ok?"Luke says and gives me a worried look.

"uh yeah I'm fine I was just thinking" I smile at him and we continue eating our icecream and watching a cartoon I haven't sen in years and can't even remember the name of it but it still makes me laugh.

"you know I'm never going to let Noah hurt you or touch you right?" and he looks at me right in the eyes.

"I know Luke"

"No Blair I'm serious, I'm never ever going to let him do anything to you and not just him, anyone. I'm not going to let anyone hurt you. I wouldn't be able to forgive myself if I did" he says and puts his hand on my thigh but not in a dirty way, in a way comforting way. and we sit there for a few hours and when I finally look at the time its 8:07

"Luke I kno-" I am interrupter by a knock on the door.

"don't move" Luke says and he hops over to the couch and slowely opens the door.

"Um who are you" I hear Luke say.

"Um no who are you and why are you in my house?" I hear a voice say that make me smile ear to ear.

I jump off the couch and run to the door "JACE!!" I yell and hug my brother that I haven't seen in what so long.

"Blair! I missed you!" he says and hugs me back.

Finally when i get off Jace I look over at Luke, who is just standing there awkwardly with a confused and worried look on his face and it hits me.

Luke is just wearing some shorts and I'm wearing Lukes shirt and my underwear. I don't really know how we got like this or how I ended up wearing only his shirt but his shirt goes down to my knees almost.

"uh Jave this is my friend Luke" I say and walk over next to Luke. "and uh Luke this is my brother Jace"

"friends?" Jace says and winks at us and points to what we are wearing.

"ew Jace stop, nothing happened and we are just friends" I say and I give him a dirty look.

"uh so its nice to meet you Jace" Luke says and holds out his hand to shake Jaces and they shake hands. This is sooo awkward.

"nice to meet you too Luke but if you don't mind I can tell how awkward this is for Blair and if I don't leave now she will kill me so I am going to put my bag in my room and then I'm going out for a little bit. and Blair I will be back before dinner, maybe. ok love you"  and with that he runs up stairs and runs back downstairs and walks out the door to his car and I close the door. i can't help myself but I burst out laughing.

"whats so funny?" Luke says.

"my brother thinks we had sex" and I continue to laugh and now that i said it out loud it makes me laugh even more. I probably look like a stupid seal right now because I'm laughing so hard there is no noise coming out of my mouth from laughing so hard.

"thats not funny Blair! I get he hates me now" Luke says and you can tell he is trying not to laugh.

"well its ok I hate you too" I laugh and laugh.

"hey you do not hate me!' Luke says and tackles me.

"oww Luke your fat ass landed on me"

"shut up" he says and laughs and then we stop laughing. neither of us are talking. we are just looking at each other. I see Lukes eyes go to my lips back to my eyes and he starts to lean into me. and we kiss. again. But this time it feels different. it feels real. I don't know how else to say it but I like it.

after a while I pull away from the kiss. "I-I'm sorry Blair I don't know why it did that" Luke says and bites his lip. he does that a lot.

"don't be sorry" I say and I kiss him again and I get up and I walk to the couch.