Bumps, Bruises And Scars

chapter 19: the truth is out there... and it hurts

Wow I need to findout what really happened to me. This is going to be a very long time.

I closed my book and hid it back in the bookshelf like I always do.

About a week had gone by and I by now I remember loads about my life before the memory loss.

I had strong feelings for someone at school, but I don't know who.

I had alot of secrets.

I didn't live at home with my mum I was with Noel.

Noel was horrible to me.

I always used to cry and tell him to stop, but I can't remember what.

I have tried to make sense of it all and put it all together but part still don't add up.

I think Noel is getting suspicious of me because he keeps staring at me and always trying to findout what in the book.

That's why I have to hide it.

Noel keeps bugging me about the baby.

He thinks it's the hormones that makes me like this.

To be honest I am quite scares of what he would do to me if he ever foundout about the book.

But then again if I just hide it will, then he will never have to know.

I have been thinking about somethings lately.

What is my life so shit and messed up?

What did I ever do that was so bad?

Why did Noel lie to me and how did he change from being sweet and caring to an abusive beast?

4 months later

Alot has happened to me in the last 4 months.

Being with Noel every say and having to see him makes me want to vomit.

Oh hanging, did I forget to mention I am now 5 months pregnant with that beasts daughter.

I have had nightmares every night for the past 3 weeks about me giving birth and I look down to see Noel laughing at me, I scream and wake up.

Now I can just about predict what is going to happen when I go to sleep.

Now I remember everything, I was inlove with my teacher, yes a teacher, my English teachers Mr Fitz.

He was really cute and saved me from Noel.

One day I was at home while Noel was put. I cut myself and Ezra helped me.

Noel came back and I had to hide Ezra.

Then Noel raped me and Ezra snuck out back office house when we were asleep.

I told him not to tell and luckily he didn't.

I didn't go to school for ages because Noel hurt me really badly and I couldn't move, and I had loads if bruises.

Ezra was really worried about me, so he asked me to stay behind after class, this is when he saw the black eye.

He saw the bruises noel gave me and when Noel hurt me so, at school he beat him up.

After that I lived with ezra, one day I hot freaked out because he grabbed me and ran out the door.

I was in an alley and noel found me, he made me swallow a blue pill that made me fall asleep.

That when I got to Ravenswood I met 1d and noel was horrible to me he would beat me up and be rape me.

I played truth or dare with them.

I also told Noel I was pregnant when I wasn't, but we has sex after so I guess that's how that happened.

They all got drunk, and I found my phone.

I called Ezra and he was on his way.

Noel got angry and banged the door down, he hit me really hard over the head and I woke up here with no memory.

Oh yeah, I forgot to mention I wasnt very good at school, I would smoke, ditch and be gobby to all the teachers.

But that was the past and I am a new person now, I am better, and kinder to people.

Me and noel haven't been that close lately.

Every time Im near him I just want to rum away and hide.

I can see he is making an effort, but I'm not going to give in, not after that he did to me, I'm not risking it all for him to hurt me.

I normally just sit on the sofa and watch TV all day, and when Noel comes in I pretended to run out and be sick, go to the kitchen, grab food and go upstairs or just say night, I'm tired I'm going to bed.

It seems to work because He just leaves me and carries on with what he was doing before.

Noel's pov:

I don't know what is going on with aria at the moment, she is acting like I killed someone, and at first I thought it was because shes pregnant and hormonal, but it's something else.

Something bigger.

Omg what if she knows, that would explain everything, why she is acting so weird, why she doesn't talk to me and why she always keeps her distance.

But what am I supposed to do?

I can't hit her, I might harm the baby, and I don't want anything bad to happen to her.

I think that I should just be really kindly her, talk to her more and see how she reacts, because she might forgive me this way.

I started to walk up the stairs, and I heard the loudest ear piercing scream ever humanly possible.

I ran to aria's room to find her in her bed clenching onto her stomach in pain.

There was blood everywhere.

Aria kept on screaming she didn't stop, she only was able to say through all of it

" I.......ne...ed to go........to the hospi....tal, I think......I'm having...a mis....carriage." she said.

"what did you just say to me?" i yelled.

"please no....el... I'm in so much...pain." she cried.

"well what about my daughter she's dead because of you, you worthless little slut." I Screamed.

I was so pissed off at her.

Shit what did I just do?

She will never trust me again.

"wait Aria, I'm so sorry, I didn't mean that. I don't know what came over me, come one let's late you to the hospital." I said picking her up and carried her bridal style to my car.

She Screamed and cried all the way to rthe hospital, I was still angry that she killed my daughter, but don't worry, I will het pissed at her another day and then we can have another kid.

2 days later

Aria has been staying at the hospital for the past two says.

She hasn't talked much.

I know this baby ment the world to her and when I got mad at her for loosing her, I think I just lost her even more. Now I have no chance.

When she lost the baby, I head her cry herself to sleep every night.

Today she is allowed to go home, but I'm not sure if she wants to, she hates me.

Will I ever get her back again?

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I will update soon, thanks for everything please leave comments, what will happen?

Will aria find Ezra?

Will ezria have a kid?

Will aria escape from Noel?

Thanks kisses-phoebe <3