Kylo Ren's P.O.V.
I need her, I need that untrained scavenger from Jakku. I tried to calm my mind down from reminiscing nightmares as I look out the window after destroying two computers in my room. Everytime I stare at my tri-saber I remember the time we had a fight in the snow, and I just can't accept that I lose in that. I wanted to talk to her so I marched in her room for a visit. She'll be here for quite a while as supreme leader commanded me to get her for him, but I do not know his plans. I knocked on her door to check if she's already awake so I moved my hand and the door slid open and there she is: gnashing teeth and raging fury, she looks like she wants to bite me. There's something in her eyes that sets me apart from the dark so I took my eyes off that undeniably tempting vision. I walked stiffly towards her as she tries to pierce me with her eyes and it made it a lot harder to come close. She looked at me from head to toe and we fell into a short pause. She broke the ice as she demanded me to take my mask off twice as it echoed to the halls. I took it off slowly then I stared firm in her eyes as it was followed by a hint that she wants to pull me to join the light side, the resistance.
"How dare you think I'll go with you just like that?" I moved closer to her face with a grin, scanning every detail but I swallowed in doubt that she would intrude my mind. She looked like she wants to beat me but she can't move because I paralyzed her when she was asleep. Now that she's awake I'm about to interrogate her about the map. But second thoughts are playing around my head. I observe her and I just can't accept that I'm feeling weak. She moves her head to all corners of the place. "Are you not comfortable in here? Tell me what you want." I moved my hand and she tried to move her cuffed hands to hit my face but I held them with my fist and moved it close to my lips, still in contact with her eyes. "What.. what do you want from me?" She shook in fear because she can't defend herself. Her weapons are under her bed but I think I should fix this place before I take her cuffs off.
General Hux came by and asked for a short conversation. Rey was staring numbly at him as I sighed for a second. I went out her door and I asked him if he knows what Snoke is up to, he said he doesn't know then he warned me about the power and darkness within her. Aside that he told nonsense stories about his useless existence, and the rest were trash, insults rather. After that stiff conversation I gave him a fake compliment and he marched away. I imagined killing him slowly when she blew it because she called to me. "I need a better place to stay in, this is a wreck!". She stared with disgust while I gulped in and combed my fingers through my hair as I took a deep breath, because I was having trouble that the only thing I can think of is to let her stay with me in my room. Is there another option? I don't think so. Without permission I told her that she will move to some place better not informing that it is my place. I felt a little jolt in my chest. Then I called two of my people to get her things and we transferred smoothly. And the question came, "What place is this?" She asked in amazement. "This is so different from that old garage." I replied, "This is my room, any problems?" My chest makes me feel like running from the tension she brings.
"Sit down." I said with my helmet on. I want to see her face when I talk to her. I watch her move and touch my things, it looks like it's not gonna be too hard at all. Then she spoke, "Wait what? This is.. then that only means more.." She didn't continued. Her face turned red but I ask myself how can she stay so beautiful? I stirred the conversation in another direction but she keeps on convincing me to forget Kylo Ren and to go with her. I told her there is no chance for me to change. I enjoy having an argument with her even though I doubt sometimes because she may know what's on my mind. There's the tension. She stared me in the eyes again with might, I could see force within her, it makes a loud hit to my chest and a message that tells me to express what I feel because it will all go to that point. But I keep on fighting myself. "The force is strong within you. Let me teach you how to handle it properly." I feel a little afraid because one more step near her and I don't know what to do.
