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What's been going on lately is something I wouldn't have expected· two days later I saw him in class, he immediately approached me. It was like we've known each other, he's so welcoming and sweet that I feel as if I can be myself around him.
Remarkable, I've never let anyone come so close to me, not even my plastic friends, I can't explain why he's gained my trust. Jungkook sat next to me, it was a bit awkward at first but it sparked my interest, he was asking about me and my life, my art and hobbies. I found it a little weird, you'd say he acts somewhat clingy but it's not that, it feels like he wants to start a friendship maybe (?) I like this concept, to be honest I'd also have no problem at all to get to know him. I'm not used to people similar to him, an aura so different and mysterious sometimes, how he talks is unique. The boy brings something with him, the way he carries himself, he lightens up the room whenever he walks in with that gorgeous smile of his. Me being comfortable around a person is a big deal, and as he's unlocked that part of me it doesn't come off hard to be chatty. I enjoy his companion, and I think that so does he.

That's how these weeks have gone by, from me being alone in here I went to having a short-term friend to share my ideas with. I kind of look forward to walk in and see him sitting next to the window, lost in his drawings. The way he talks to me, the way he says hi when he walks in the class and how he walks me out when we're done, I love those. Time goes by effortlessly when we're together, 45 minutes of not wishing I were at home, which is pretty special considering I'm me. We talk about a lot of stuff, nothing specific but it's enjoyable. Sometimes he helps me with the techniques, others he inspires me to create. Strange. he's different, beautiful, warm. That feeling of security the boy gives me is new, I know him so little though. I don't know, this kind of butterflies I get every time he's too close or just looks at me in the eye have put me into thinking. I've never been such a version of myself.

"Nice outline" , he was behind me. He's smiling, I can see he likes my project.

"I'm glad you like it. It's supposed to be-"

"An angel, nice", he gives me a glance.

I only did one wing, he has probably studied the classics.

"Hah it's not that good."

"It's amazing, it's starting to have a peaceful aura. Good source of inspiration."

I smiled, thank God he doesn't know.

"So what are you up to?"

"Finishing this hah."

"No no I mean after the class".

I didn't expect that, I got somewhat nervous as I was trying to figure out what answer would be fitting.
"Uuh going home and maybe studying a bit hah."
I may have sounded too much of a dork but the words had already escaped my mouth.

"Well I don't wanna keep you from your homework, how about going for a walk tomorrow? You know, to hang out a little, maybe grab a bite."

His suggestion got me a little unprepared. We have been friends for quite a while but we've never actually went out together, so I wasn't sure how to interpret it. Not that I didn't want to go of course, I just felt, I don't know, I was scared that I'll embarrass myself, but I definitely couldn't afford to miss that.

"Uh sure, yeah I'm available."

I said in panic, I tried it to hide it. He looks satisfied with my answer.

"Cool, we could meet at the bench near the bus station then. Tomorrow at six, is that okay?"

"Okay, it's a date!"

I didn't mean it this way – like, not in a romantic way, ah I already started messing it up. I close my eyes in disappointment. Jungkook notices, and smiles.

"It's a date then", he winks.