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It's been two hours and I still can't get the happening off my head, my heart still races and the boiled anger remains in the pit of my stomach. I really need to let my mind go, lets just lay in bed and try to fall asleep, tomorrow will be a better day.

I can't. I'm irritated, full of guilt, and absolutely let down. Just gonna draw a bit, I'm grabbing my notebook and continue my angel. I'm in the middle of finishing it, I've never worked so hard on a project. I try to concentrate so I won't be able to think about anything else, can my brain just let me focus on already?

Phone ringing, unknown number. This joke is getting on my nerves. I pick it up, a trembling voice is on the other side, cracking and shaking, it's Mike's mom. She used to know about us back then, but agreed not to tell mine anything as we explained to her my parents' opinions about relationships at such a 'young age'. Talking quickly, she sounds upset.

"Hello?"

"H-hello Ellen, sorry for the time I- I just didn't know if I should call you but you were Mike's last contact and I saw you together but I-''

"Mrs. Benson calm down and tell me what's wrong."

"Mike, he's being hospitalized , he got into a fight and he's very hurt and oh my God.."

The poor lady started crying. Mike has hurt me indeed but this is serious, she thinks I need to go over so I have no choice.

"Are you serious? How did he– I'm coming I'm coming right now."

I'm grabbing a bag putting in whatever I see in front of me, my phone, my notebook, even my phone charger. I just need to go as soon as possible, for her sake. She's always been a deeply kind person.
Good thing I can leave without getting in trouble, my parents are on a dinner with some friends and Hannah is sleeping. It's still weird that Mike got into a fight, he doesn't know anyone in town. I'm actually a bit delighted that he got his ass beat up, he deserved it. I gotta hurry, I wonder why mrs. Benson is alone though. 

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Entering the hospital I see her sitting on the seats of the emergency crying and nervously shaking her feet. She sees me, gets up and hugs me. I'm feeling bad now.

"Thank you for coming Ellen, Mike's dad is at work and I didn't want to upset his grandmother, I I'm sorry if I got you here without you wanting to."

"Please don't say that, I couldn't leave you alone here. Is he okay? How did this happen?"

We sit on the seats, I place my bag behind me. Soft sobs came out of her mouth in between her words.

"I don't know, a man called and told me about it and I immediately came here, I'm hoping he'll tell me when he wakes up.. If that happens.."

"Oh no what are you talking about? He's going to be fine, alright?"

I hug her to make her feel better, I feel very sorry for her. A tall man is approaching with a terrible expression on his face·

"You're here."

"Of course, God I can't believe it.."
It's her husband, they're being held tightly in each other's arms .

"I think I should let you talk.."

"You don't have to go sweetie."

"No I, need some air", I put on a smile and walk my way out.
I still haven't gotten my mind together yet, even if needing air was just an excuse to leave the couple alone, I actually do need some space. Things are getting very complicated.