Lonely {Hemmings}

Very Lonely Boy That Gives No Shits

Journal entry 11

I feel inevitably lonely today.

I mean, I guess sitting in your room all day for two weeks can make you pretty lonely

But this . . . this is different

It's like I don't know whether to cry or vomit

I haven't brushed my hair in quite a while

Michael has been calling me from prison quite a lot

He always guides out 5 minute conversations to Ashton

I don't even care about Ashton much any more

If the guy wants to leave, then just let him fucking leave

I give no fucks what he's doing.

And Calum.

Fucking Calum.

He's been texting me for like, a week constantly and then he just fucking leaves.

For two days to be exact.

I sound obsessed I know

But love doesn't sound stupid with him.

I have a hard time relating to romance novels and practically and teen movie because either I just don't know what love is or I just think it's over rated.

Confusing, I know. Let me break it down for you.

When I see couples and shit it's like, "ew"

When I picture me in a relationship it's like, "ew"

But with Calum it's like, "aw"

Get it?

Yeah.

And you know what else I've been thinking about?

Drop bears.

They aren't fucking real.

Shut up Australia.

Anyways, yeah.

I feel gross and moody and crap.

I'm sorry

I'm just gonna read Welcome to Night Vale and cry about my feelings.

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