Destiel one shots!! And maybe Sabriel

Cas

This chapter mentions self harm. If you ever feel like you need to harm yourself in anyway, please talk to me. I have been through it, I'm currently going through it and I can help. Don't feel shy to to contact me.

I hurt myself again. I knew Dean wouldn't like it, I knew he would be mad; that is if he found out I ever did it in the first place.

I couldn't help doing it again. I looked over at the pencil sharpener and it sounded as if it where calling to me. I missed the feeling of blood dripping down my arm, or the feeling of the metal agains my skin.

I can't let Dean find out, he'll be mad at me. He'll storm out and get drunk like he did last time. He'll come home, and yell at me, ask me why I did it, crying. I don't know why I do.

When I do it, I can get out of my head. I feel something again, I feel pain. Most of the time I'm numb, and can't feel a thing. It scares me, but when I do this, I feel pain. Dean just doesn't understand.

I can't let him find out, I just can't.

I'm sorry don't hate me!