Can You Hear Me?

Chapter Six:

Things were quite at home, I had absolutely no motivation to do anything there was just so much pain.  I just changed into leggings and Ethan's sweatshirt which was way too big for me and curled up in a ball on the couch and didn't move, Ethan left to go get something I don't know what he refused to tell me. Grey was home though we didn't speak but he made sure I wasn't alone either. My thoughts and memories get the best of though and more tears start to fall. I hide my face with my hands as my hair falls to the side, I feel too weak to even move to go anywhere so I just stay on the couch and cry. Suddenly I feel two strong arms wrap around me and pull me close. Grayson wraps my small body in a hug and doesn't let go, "It's okay Ash, everything is going to be okay." I bury my face in his shoulder "Why does it have to hurt so bad? Why is there so much pain?" "I don't know Ash I really don't, but what I do know is that Ethan and I are both here for you. You're not alone, I'm here I'll listen."  He holds me even tighter as I cry, I just want it over, I want the pain to go away. Grey rocks back and forth trying to soothe me but it's not working this time. The constant memory of Derek and all the things we did together keep flashing through my mind. Then I hear the door close and Grey speaks "Hey man." "What's going on Grey" says Ethan, "She is crying so I was trying to comfort her while you were away." I continue to hide my face and cry into Grayson's shoulder while they talk.  Suddenly I'm being carried and placed into someone else's arms. I take a quick look to see Ethan carrying me up the stairs to his room but then bury my face in his shoulder again. The feeling of his bed touches my feet and makes me jump. "Shh, Shh, Shh, everything is okay baby girl" Ethan says in a soft tone. My tears stain his shirt and my body trembles like crazy but I can't help it. "Come one baby tell me what happened." "All the memories came and...and I couldn't take it. Ethan it hurts so bad" I say as I cry "Damn Ash you're shaking like a leaf, like it's really bad. You got to relax baby just so you don't shake as bad." "I can't, I can't, I can't, please Eth make the pain go away. Please Ethan I'm begging you." We don't say a word he just lets me cry into his chest. He sits me on his lap and rocks me back and forth while rubbing my back and humming. After ten minutes of Ethan soothing me my body finally relaxes and my crying stops. He continues to rock me back and forth though as I slowly breath in his scent. "I'm okay now Ethan, you don't have to do this anymore but thank you." "Are you sure" he questions, I nod my head against his chest. "Okay, I'm glad you are feeling little bit better. I have something planned for all of us to do." "Oh yeah and what do you have planned for us" I ask as he continues to rock me back and forth. "Well I went to the store bought all sorts of candy and ice cream then I went to the movie rental place and picked up some scary movies along with a comedy or two. Then right after that I went and bought us a large cheese and pepperoni pizza. I figured today was an extremely hard day for you and it was hard for us having to stand back and watch you suffer so I thought I would make it a movie night." I smile and look him deep in his beautiful chocolate brown eyes "sounds like fun." He smiles back, "Good" he says as he leans in and kisses me with his warm lips. God his lips are so soft and warm, there is so much heat and pressure that I can't take it. I don't want the kiss to ever end; his hands find my waist and pull me even closer to him. He slides his tongue across my bottom lip just asking to come in and I gladly allow it. His tongue caresses mine as he brings one of his hands up and places it on my face deepening the kiss. We eventually break up and I rest my forehead on his while trying to steady my breath. He looks me dead in the eyes and says "God I just can't get over how gorgeous your eyes are and how gorgeous you are in general." His breathing is shaking just like mine. I look down as I blush and bite my lip and Ethan just chuckles, he then moves his head away and gives me a small peak on the lips. Suddenly there is a knocking and we both turn and look. Greyson stands in the door way "Hey we going to get this movie night started or what" he asks ask he chuckles. "Yeah be right down Grey" says Ethan as he turns and looks at me. "Ready" he asks, "Let's do this" I say as I smile, he grabs my hand and we walk down stairs together.