determinant intricacies | 2

xx.

you knew

how much

i despised math.

you knew

how much

i hated

when words

were involved in math.

you tried to help,

but none of it stuck.

my brain refused

to allow

math

to take over me.

the endless numbers

flew around my head,

taunting me.

i hated

how good you were at it.

i was a dumbass,

yet..

you didn't seem to mind.

"sweetheart, it's like this.."

you did your best to explain,

but none of it stuck.

i felt

ashamed

every time i was around you.

you weren't just good at math;

you were good at

every subject that you studied.

the teachers

gushed

whenever you were

around.

why do you still

keep me around you?

i'm dead weight to you.

i'll only drag you down

in my sea

of endless

f a i l u r e .

you're like

the north star,

the brightest

of all

the stars

in the sky.

i saw

the principal

talking to you

the other day.

you carried yourself

with confidence,

with pride

in your achievements.

despite how proud you were,

it was humbling

watching you speak to him.

when you returned,

i cast you a glance,

a beam of pride;

not to the girl i loved,

but..

to my best friend.

i'm proud of you, daisy.

you sent me

the sweetest smile

i'd ever seen you give me.

i couldn't have been more grateful

for

a best friend

like you.