Rescue Me (Niall Horan) (UNDER EDITING)

Chapter 22: The Blame Game

Tara P.O.V. 

This is all my fault. Everything is my fault... 

Harry and Niall got into a fight and then he ran away. My fault. 

Louis is in the hospital, and if the results are bad he might die. My fault. 

Zayn hates me. My fault. 

Liam refuses to look Niall in the eye. My fault. 

Niall... Niall isn't happy. I can tell. He's on edge with Zayn and Liam, also he just had a fist fight with Harry. I'm here for no reason. I'm breaking up the band. They don't need me. The only one Ni is on the same page with is Louis. 

Why did I have to be born? 

If I wasn't around then Louis and all the other lads wouldn't be in this predicament. It's my fault. It always has been, and it always will be. Nothing’s changed. 

"It's not your fault love. Stop stressing." Niall whispered softly in my ear cause me to flinch away in shock. How did he know what I was thinking? "I've live with you for five weeks. I've seen how you act, and I know you blame yourself for stuff when it’s not even your fault." He said firmly. 

"But this is my fault Ni. If I just... Louis shouldn't be in this state. If I wasn't alive he wouldn’t have been hurt. You and Harry are fighting. Zayn hates my guts, and Liam despises me..." A tear threatens to fall, but I protest. I will not be weak any longer. 

The arguments, the hate, the sad and the hurt. It's all so much emotion. It's all so conflicting. 

Everything... I feel as if it's all my fault. 

Harry wants absolutely nothing to do with me, he actually left so he didn't have to look at me. I hope I can change his kind. I don't want him to hate me, I want to be friends. 

Zayn... He once trusted and had respect for me, he now it’s gone. All because of Ryan. I have nothing to say to him. He believes Ryan over me... I don't know how to change his mind. 

Liam agreed to let me stay with them because of Niall's request, yet he still feels like I'm manipulating Niall. And now Louis. 

Louis and Niall actually respect and trust me, they know what I've been, and what I'm currently going through... 

Everything seems to always point back at me, everything seems to always be my fault. All the fights and drama between everyone was created by ME! 

Liam and Zayn are sitting across from Niall and I. We're sitting on a black leather couch in the waiting room in the hall, while they are in chairs on the opposite side of the hall. 

I looked down at my hands as I crossed my legs and let out a small sigh, quiet enough so no one would hear. 

I feel like everyone’s hating on me, putting the blame all on me. Maybe it is all my fault, maybe I am the one to blame. 

My heart felt black, like it had a hole in it. Depression grew on me and the tears swelled in my eyes. 

What if I'm alone in the end, because everyone turns against me. 

"Tara..." I looked up at Niall as the tears cleared from my eyes. 

"Yeah?!" I responded with a weak smile showing no hint of guilt and sadness. 

"I don't want you to blame yourself for any of this." his said with a straight face looking down into my chocolaty brown eyes. 

"I'm-I'm not." I lie to him, chuckling.