Rescue Me (Niall Horan) (UNDER EDITING)

Chapter 29: Past, Present, Future

Tara’s P.O.V

“This isn’t going to work, Niall will be home any second!” I was panicking because El was doing some last minute work on my hair. I was dressed and had my makeup done, all I was doing was waiting for my hair so I could see what I look like.

“Tara babe, shut up. You look stunning! The other boys are going to be so jealous!!” I sighed.

Maybe this is all a mistake. Niall probably isn’t even going to show up.  Wouldn’t be surprised if he took this opportunity to leave town so he wouldn’t have to see me ever again.

I want to be happy, I really do… But every time I think something good is going to happen, the opposite does. Over the course of time I have been slowly accumulating more and more fear. I refuse to let myself give in easily because there is no point.

Everyone leaves.

“Tara?” El put down the brush. “What’s got you upset?” Her voice filling with concern. I stand up and look into the body mirror.

For a moment I love the way I look tonight, but I let little things stand out and I become insecure. I want to be with Niall forever, I know it seems so fast, but it’s true. The sad part is, does he want to be with me?

“…Is he going to even show up El?” I whisper. Hearing a small gasp I am spun around. El is a fair bit taller than me, so I have to look up to see the confusion and hurt in her eyes.

“Niall would never do that to you. I have never seen him so happy Tar. Seriously, have faith babe. You own his heart, and I know he owns yours. I know how much he cares for you. Take some time and believe in him, and in yourself.” I look away and nod.

“Can I have a minute to myself before he comes? I need to clear my head.” She smiles.

“Of course darling! Take all the time you need. I’ll let you know when he’s here” I nodded and she left the room, closing the door behind her.

I let out a long breath and carefully sit on the bed, watching that I don’t harm the five grand dress. I can’t believe I bought this with his money. I close my eyes and let my mind wander.

Sometimes we fall down, can't get back up

We're hiding behind skin that's too tough

How come we don't say I love you enough?

'Til it's to late, it's not too late

I need to change, be more open and allow people past these walls that have been built because of Ryan

Our hearts are hungry for a food that won't come

And we could make a feast from these crumbs

And we're all staring down the barrel of a gun

So if your life flashed before you, what would you wish you would've done?