Unbearable Decisions (boyxboy)

Chapter 18 (Oath of a New Best Friend)

Jacob's Point of View

I woke up to the sound of someone shuffling around the room. When I opened my eyes I saw that I was face down in the pillow. I moved my arms around trying to find the body that I remember holding onto last night for dear life. Unfortunately my hand touched nothing but sheets and blankets. Before I could lift my head memories of yesterday and why I had broken down again came flooding back to the front of my mind. I stayed like I was as I started silently sobbing again.

I wanted nothing more than to forget everything and go back to my old life! Then again if I did, I would have to leave behind Luca and all the fun we've had, that was the last thing I wanted! Remembering that Luca had stayed with me through the night a second time and was now gone caused me to worry about where he was. I wanted him to come in here and tell me everything would be alright. I know it seems really weak of me to want this and that I'm acting like a girl but it was to much to hold in. After crying for what seemed like forever I finally accepted the fact that he wasn't going to come.

I took a minute to collect myself and stop my tears before I sat up and looked around the room for Luca. He wasn't there so I called out to him hoping that he'll pop out just like yesterday, he never did. I got up and moved to head to the kitchen praying that Luca was cooking breakfast. As I opened the door I was instantly met with the intoxicating smell of bacon! My stomach growled and I gripped it, trying to muffle the sound. I didn't eat dinner last night because of my little meltdown so I was very hungry.

I walked in to the kitchen expecting Luca to be leaning over the oven, engrossed in cooking. I stopped short when I saw no one in there, everything was clean and put away as well. I followed my nose to the living room and there sat Luca. Something was off though because he was wearing grey again and not acknowledging my arrival. "Hey Luca what ya doing?" I asked trying to get his attention. "Eating" he said with a blank  voice and keeping his attention on the plate.

What is going on? Why is he acting like this? "Oh did you make me any?" I said hoping the answer was yes. "No" he growled out almost like it was crazy of me to think he would. I just stood there feeling like I had been punched in the gut, he was angry. I went to sit down beside him only to have him scoot as far away as possible. "Luca, what's wrong?" I asked getting more and more worried as the seconds ticked by. "Nothing, just go get ready so you can leave when you need to" he said as he turned his back to me.

This simple act caused my heart to lurch and my stomach to jump into my throat. I scooted closer and saw him visibly tense when I did! "Don't lie to me, I can tell you're upset" I said not daring to move closer. "You don't know me well enough to know when I'm lying so just leave me alone and go get ready" he growled out still facing away from me. "No Luca I want to know why you won't look at me" I said softly since I knew he could snap at any moment.

"I'm not looking at you because I don't want to alright!" he said as his voice began to rise. After that he got up and began to walk away. I followed him back into the kitchen as he threw his plate into the sink. He gripped the edge of it and leaned forward as he began to shake. I just stood off to the side while my heart began to hurt from watching this.

I went over to him and put my hand on his shoulder saying "Luca please I want to he-." Before I was finished he pushed me off and down on to the floor and yelled "DON'T TOUCH ME!! I DON'T NEED YOU OR ANYONE!!" I just laid there as I watch him stiffen up and mumble "I've been alone long enough to not need anyone." Wait, he still thinks he's alone!? Before I could talk anymore he dashed down the hall to our room and slammed the door.

I stayed where I was thinking so hard about Luca and what could possibly make him change back to an unsociable guy. I mean, we did have fun yesterday right? He's my friend and I am not going to let him fall back into his pit, his lonely pit. With this in mind I got up and went to the bedroom door, hesitating before I knocked. "Luca can you please talk to me, you don't have to be alone anymore" I said just loud enough so I know he heard it.