I Wouldn't Change It For The World (Janto)

Chapter 8 - Love is a game

Ianto's POV-
I sat on the floor in shock, did Jack really mean that? As I was trying to think of what to say Jack got up and left slamming the door shut behind him.
The words began to sink in more and more ... "He doesn't love me!" I began to cry into my hands  ... The day slowly went by while I was going through everything Jack done for me, all was to him was a quick way to get laid and that made me cry even more.
The door opened, John walked in holding Jack's hand, John let go of Jack's hand and came towards me he peaked my cheek and whispered into my ear "He's all mine" Jack didn't even look at me, I knew he was telling the truth, he never really did love me.

Jack's POV-
I focused on the top corner of the room I couldn't look at Ianto, I knew he had been crying I just couldn't do anything about it, this was slowly killing me!
After John stood up and kissed me passionately, I tried my best to kiss him back but it was difficult knowing Ianto was there watching he must hate me. John began to move me back through the door as we left Ianto's room John pushed me into mine slamming the door "Sorry lover, but how do I know you won't try and run?" John's voice began to rise as he went into Ianto's room guiding him to his room... I took a deep breath knowing what was going to happen to Ianto as they left my view I just began to punch the wall repeatedly trying to take out my anger, I couldn't even tell Ianto that it was going to be okay because then John would know I'm lying about my feelings towards him so he would ... He would ... I felt tears running down my face I kept repeating he would kill Ianto in my head.
I hit the wall so much that blood could clearly be seen on the wall, my knuckles was swollen and bruised but I didn't care I felt like I was going to be sick Ianto was in danger and I was allowing it to happen!
John opened my room and threw Ianto in "Honey, can u fix this one up... I want to have more fun with him tomorrow" John asked I put on a fake smile and nodded the first aid kit was thrown in the room shortly after and John walked off.
I sprinted to Ianto inspecting the damage as I reached down to touch this cheek trying to show him was me and not that monster. As I touched his cheek he moved his face away "Ianto?" I asked and he looked at me blankly "Ianto I love you, I only  said those things to keep you safe" I never said 'I love you' to someone before but with Ianto it was different I actually did love him! "yeah, really Jack because now I think about it, it was your idea to not tell anyone about us, yes I agreed but only because I wanted to keep YOU happy!" Ianto's words hurt more then being killed "Ianto I didn't want anyone to make any comments that would make you uncomfortable" I said holding back tears "REALLY BECAUSE I THINK YOUR ASHAMED OF ME!" Ianto screamed, he pulled himself up and walked towards the door"can I go into my own room!" Ianto screamed and John opened the door allowing Ianto into his own room leaving me again ... Alone!
Ianto thought I didn't love him, he thought he was just another person who I flirted with, did I do the right thing or did I just cause Ianto more pain?!
As the night went on it was silent until I heard someone crying, Ianto! I hate myself I've hurt the man I love, I heard people say that it's a thin line between love and hate, I thought it was one of those things that was complete nonsense, but now sitting here knowing Ianto hated every fibre in my body I knew that it was the truth! I lost him, he will never forgive me...

The next day approached and somehow I managed to get an hour sleep but I wish I didn't! I woke to Ianto's screams he was dragged into my room again and dropped on to the floor I ran over to him, I've never seen him this hurt! His breaths were faint! "IANTO!" I lifted his head on to my lap, he tried to move but I held him on my lap "I promise you, I love you and only you!" I said a tear fell down my cheek, he smiled "you only cry when your telling the truth" the words came out almost silent but I still heard it, I smiled but more tears fell down my face.

Ianto's breathing slowed down "I love you, Ianto Jones!" I whispered "Captain Jack Harkness,I love yo-" Ianto breathing suddenly stopped! "IANTO" I screamed my eyes filling with tears, "Ianto please!" My tears dropped into his torn suit which still managed to make him look as amazing as he always did, his eyes were shut and there was no sign of life, I took a pulse but there was nothing ... My Ianto ... My Ianto, the man I loved the man I planned to spend the rest of his days with him, I never realised how soon that would come!
"He's dead" I couldn't stop crying now it cause me physical pain when I took a breath! Ianto was gone, I will never forgive myself, I should have tried harder to get him out I should have made I better deal with John! I screamed until my vocal chords stung but that was nothing like the pain I had in my chest, I felt like my heart had been torn straight out of my chest and there was nothing I could do about it!

Ianto's body began to go pale standing out against my black trousers "I'm sorry" I said as I kissed his forehead ...

A/N:-
Sorry this has come out so late, had a lot on today might not be able to post tomorrow or the day after so it will probably be on Friday (uk time) sorry this is also short, I'll write a really long one of Friday! Also how many chapters should I do can someone please comment no sure whether to go to 20 or more?
Clare xoxo